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Originally Posted by goldendoodle
1st question: God this is such a complicated subject for me. It's always been inextricably tied to my current level of confusion (as it's always varied wildly!!!!) about my sexual orientation AND my current level of body dysmorphia. BUT purely in terms of presentation, I'm probably around.. a 7?? I don't really wear makeup (or heels, or anything overly tedious like that) aside from eyeliner, undereye concealer and tinted lip balm. My clothing style alternates between Cozy Gender-Neutral Grandpa, Chaotic Femme and Vaguely Tomboyish. I've always wished I could pull off the whole androgynous & flamboyant Tilda Swinton/Villanelle thing but I just don't have the bone structure for it (so I tend to settle with more of a tomboyish thing instead, on days I feel compelled to do so)
Now as for identity I. Do not know!!!! I recently decided to stop overanalyzing it so much because I was driving myself crazy.
Bonus question: Switch
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Omg, so much the bolded, f
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I think it's a really good thing to not overanalyze your identity, especially if it's fluid - like maybe who you are changes like the seasons, maybe you're not meant for stasis. That said I know that internally not having that clarity will also drive you mad, particularly because we humans love to categorize things, and see where we fit within those established structures.
I suspect though, that we can't even fathom the intricacies and nuances and endless possibilities of gender identity and sexual orientation because it's never been prioritized as a worthy endeavor, and those that do dig deeper or push the question further are typically ostracized and othered and at best kept on the fringes of society.
Imagine if we valued self discovery as a species as much as we do military prowess, or keeping up with the Jones'. I think that is changing, (god bless gen z ily) albeit slowly, and I'm glad to be a witness. What a damn shame of a setback though, like the Dark Ages of introspection.
Sorry I'm not smoking weed right now and this is what my brain does not on drugs, I could keep going until I've answered all my own questions lmao