Originally Posted by The Batlord

On the one hand I'm not bothered because all these numbers and expectations obscure the fact that all you have is the present moment and you can be chill in this moment and any expectations you might have had, even if you met them, are still just psychological distractions from this moment in which the only thing that matters is appreciating the moment.

On the other hand death approaches and is inescapable and closer and closer crawls the day that will snuff out my consciousness and that day comes faster with each year and it is suffocating.

So it's a mixed bag but you should just find a way to chill in the moment and stretch that time out till you're counting your breaths in satisfaction.