As each day goes by i think about it less and less but now when I simply go for a walk, I feel uneasy when i hear somebody or see somebody walking by. I've always been a recluse and I dont go out much regardless but now I have even less want to do so. I'm taking a few weeks off for myself as I've saved up but I wont be looking for work that requires me to leave my house. For my own anxiety sake.
Every day for the past few years I've always been super aware of my surroundings and unfortunately that didnt work out this time. It doesnt help that we live in a society with laughable gun control or lack thereof. Theres more positives to come from it but itll just take time. I'm choosing to look at this as an opportunity to change my life and better myself for the future.
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