You're not alone—I've felt that same mix of emptiness, shame, and pressure to be "enough." When I couldn’t cope, I found small steps like journaling or just telling someone helped. One thing that brought relief was seeking help—
Canada Pharmacy Partner program that made it easier for me to access meds discreetly and affordably, which honestly helped stabilize things. If your dream is music, it’s worth holding onto. Even if the path is uncertain, you don’t have to walk it in silence or pain. You’re not pathetic for feeling deeply—you’re human, and people do hear you.