I'm sorry I believed him? I'm sorry I love him more than anything in the world? I'm not giving excuses. I honestly, truely, believed and loved him. I am quite gullible and naive when it comes to love. I fall for guys easily and I fall hard. I had sex with him to make him happy. I could have gone without it, but he is admittedly a nymphomaniac and I didnt want to lose him. to make it worse, I could be pregnant. I pray that I'm not because I'm too young for that shit. But I had a stupid moment, stupid month really. And I fell for bullshit. And I feel increasingly bad about it.
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So here's to living life miserable.
And here's to all the lonely stories that I've told.
Maybe drinking wine will validate my sorrow.
Every man needs a muse and mine could be the bottle.
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