Jadix

i dont know how it makes me feel when you call and tell me that maybe the next time im in fresno you'll take the time to see me and when i say hopefully you dont respond to me you wait there silently like your hints are above me.

guess im a fool for believing the words we were preaching that night in the parking lot where we sat and we talked about how much fun we were having just being together whatever the reason and seeing the sparks light our way out of loneliness.

Now when i send you a text i dont know if you'll even respond or even i care that you wont when you dont and i think of the things left unsaid and the damage i've spread from not speaking instead of relieving the stress and believing the rest will be ok.

im sorry i couldn't be next to you next to me.