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Originally Posted by adidasss
You weren't just crying, you were hysterical and had suicidal thoughts. Because you couldn't smoke. For 3 hours. Sorry, but that shouldn't qualify as a good enough reason to "lose it" by anyone's standards. If you were an adult and I actually knew you, I'd advise you to cut the shit and get a grip on yourself, there are people with real problems out there. But you're not and I don't.
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It wasn't because I "couldn't smoke". It was because Malcolm didn't want me to, ever. So I didn't, for 3 hours, and I knew I couldn't quit, therefore letting him down. I was crying because
1) I dissapointed him/would dissapoint him.
2) I honestly do not want to quit, and I feel if I did, having already given up pills and booze, I'd lose some sort of cliche identity that I've grown very fond of.
3) I realized then that I was a very selfish person and probably will be for the rest of my life.