Originally Posted by chickendude

I recorded some acoustic songs before a couple years ago (that are not particularly good). But they do have memories for me and so i can enjoy that aspect of them. They are very quiet (you will probably need to turn the volume up on the divshare streaming mp3 thing if you care to listen to it there or you will hear nothing). I am awful at singing and i am awful at playing the guitar, but i am even worse while doing both at the same time. So here it is, a little slice of myself, of my story, to devour:
gsr-record-Untitled-6572.mp3 - DivShare
"Ugh. something is wrong with me and i can't fix it. i just spent a few nights on the beach in an abandoned house with my travel partner, and i about killed myself coming home. i hate working, i hate buying, i hate selling, "stealing", "vandalising", calling one particular place home, driving, subsisting. i hate sitting and sinking, connecting dots and recognizing constellations somebody else drew up and i cannot stand the concept of a relationship. And i can't explain any of these things, especially the last. yesterday i really began to question the change in feeling that happens when you "officially" begin to date someone. i think it's just an excuse to get intimate. lately i've really been questioning intimacy. what's more oppressive than intimacy? what ruins a "relationship" more than intimacy? sometimes everything is just too much in that it hardly accomplishes anything at all..."
gsr-record-Untitled-7408.mp3 - DivShare
"i pulled you in even though you said you wanted to stay in the rain because i couldn't stand to see you shiver. i know i shouldn't have done it and i know you think i am afraid of everything, but the truth is you are the only thing i have ever had that still has not left.. and i am so afraid that when you do leave i will still be stuck here. i'm sorry if it hurts when i hold you so tightly, and i only hope you can only forgive me for this if i ever do become brave (i am trying so hard to be brave) but knowing you can go at any moment i think makes this impossible."