I've been diagnosed with rapid-cycling Bipolar I, but I can't afford my medicine or therapy anymore, so I just have people around me who help me to cope. They can see my moodswings coming from a mile away now, and while I'm not completely healthy, it really does help to have a strong core of support surrounding me.
I do hope to be able to go back eventually, but I feel that I definitely have a lot of help and people to reach out to as it is. It does suck, though, because I feel a bit ashamed of the whole thing and don't feel comfortable a lot of times bringing new people into my life because I'm terrified that they'll realize what's up and be like, "This I can not deal with. I can't deal with you. I'm leaving."
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