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djchameleon · 01-21-2011, 01:12 AM

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Originally Posted by bonesaw-orchestra

Thanks man.. it was an arduous first few months, but it was the best thing I ever did for myself. My doctor prescribed me Trazadone and Prozac when I was 14. I stayed on Prozac and abused the Trazadone for 3 years, then she switched me to Cipralex which meant the inability to orgasm, (among increasing my appetite for destruction, booze, pills and other assorted drug use, in the form of binges and regular abuse.) Bad news bears. I stopped taking Cipralex on a whim, but ended up really enjoying my life without it. I know depression is going to be a lifetime battle of mine, but I needed to learn how to function. I've done a complete turn around since last year, all on my own. I think I needed the final incident to open my eyes. (I ended up with 10 stitches on my arm, and 2 cm away from losing my right middle finger tip.) I haven't done anything like that since. I'm getting tattoos of the words "recovery" on my left wrist (where most of the damage was inflicted,) and "discovery" on my right wrist, because it's my writing hand and writing basically saved my life. It may not be for everyone but keeping a regular journal and writing in it often, and re-reading and closely analyzing my thought patterns, dreams, ambitions and goals is my therapy.

I agree with the journal bit. I have a livejournal that I started in 04 and it's great to go back and read what I was thinking at the time when I wrote some of my earlier entries. I also used to keep a paper journal that I would transfer to my livejournal but I stopped the paper one. yeah I really hate taking pills, I went through several different ones just like you did. Some even made me gain weight and I hated it. I was on Risperdal for a bit but that one didn't agree with me. Then I was on Zyprexa and I think that's the one that made me gain weight and made me super sleeping. I just really hate pills now.