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[TechnicLePanther]

Originally Posted by Neapolitan

I might not say it, but I care about you Roxy.

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[The Batlord]

Originally Posted by RoxyRollah

Nah Im done calling people and checking up on people and Im literrally done giving a **** about anyone and everyone.... BECAUSE nobody ever returns the caring and kindness. TH is exsempt from that statement. Because he actually does give a **** about Roxy. I've literally just dumped everyone's contact info outta my phone save for three people. Quite frankly I doubt a soul will or would notice.


Find a new town cryer.

[Key]

Originally Posted by RoxyRollah

Nah Im done calling people and checking up on people and Im literrally done giving a **** about anyone and everyone.... BECAUSE nobody ever returns the caring and kindness. TH is exsempt from that statement. Because he actually does give a **** about Roxy. I've literally just dumped everyone's contact info outta my phone save for three people. Quite frankly I doubt a soul will or would notice.


Find a new town cryer.

Then don't become the person people expect you to be. It's not hard.

[RoxyRollah]

No its not melodramatic. Not at all. You litterally have no idea how ****ed up of a week I've been through.litterally the worst week of 32 years and Ive been **** on by my job which if I called HR heads would roll from the top down. My half sister died 2 months to the day from dad. But I dont tell you all that I try and talk about something that is distracting enough like politics so Im not a blubbering mess. I have no vacation time because I used it when my other sister and dad passed did they put me in for bereavement pay no. They used my vaction and sick days. So today was the funeral for my half sister and African American communities have long drawn out funerals **** Ive seen em jump in the casket with the body. But my nephew wanted me to see it so he sent me pictures of her in the ****ing coffin.Now my half sister passed away on the 12th ok regardless of my bosses "vacation" and my lack of funds because well 3 funerals in 6 months is exspensive. Regardless I should have not been anywhere near the store. Ok all week because she didnt just die oh no she was on life support since the 20th of may and my black family was tryna get me on facebook but to no avail. Because I deactivated my account. Anyways I had to help my neices and nephews make the discision to pull the plug. And during all this was the whole uncle melvin killt granny saga.what I didnt realize is that uncle melvin was tryna put the kids outta the family home....so ok boss on vacation just me and another manager working doubles.They both knew what was going on with me and why Ive been deeeply depressed, losing weight and kinda dispondant right so when I drove to work today Im getting pictures of her funeral.I walked in distraught. And my assistant sent me home cried with me ...I get home. And this is a copy and paste message that the gm sent me...

"I know it's tough ur n a hard time.... but am I gonna have to cover u or u plan on going back to work later at least around 5? Christina had concert go to tonight"

Are you kidding me? Really? I couldnt go on bereavement leave because you were on vacation ok fine Im ok with going when you get back and I worked dbls all week me and the other manger and not one time did I complain ask to go home not ****. I got the entire back room ready for halloween and did the work of three ppl. My assistant text the gm only to havr her come in for 3 hours so she could get to her ....wait for it wait for it...slayer concert....If I hadnt been a crying mess to mojo on the phone I would have never known Slayer is playing in BRUSSELS tonight. Really thats what you two think of me that you cant let me go on my paid 5 day bereavement leave starting today rather then tomrrow? The last two funerals they aint have a choice to tell me **** like that cause I was already on a plane calling out.

Nobody called to see if I was ok today . Nobody . I drove back to work after I was told no go home I got this...And neither one of those ****s cared. 3 hours puts my boss out that much? And her assistant wasnt going to slayer so thank you Neil for sussing out I was being bull****ted.

I call them if they aint ok, cover them, send flowers, when they go into the hospital, mothers day they get homemade cakes on their birthdays. I stay late come in early.......not a one of my friends irl has called me in at least 4 months to see if I hadn't finally lost it . so yeah Im not being melodramatic. Im being real. I give more of a **** about you guys here, at work, and in my family than any of you give about me. Its ****ing evident.

Edit: even the politics dont distract because you call me mentally ill , drugged out , paranoid and show little to no tolerance for veiws that are not in sync with the majority of the forum. So yeah quite frankly none of you here or irl actually give a ****. Nope its easy to dehumanize me make me the but of your jokes, talk **** about my country, and bash the God I know hasn't abandoned me yet. And when I ask for ****ing compassion Im told were dicks get over it..... No I wont get over it try having a ****ing soul people. Sheeyot.

[Neapolitan]

Just ignore Batlord with the melodramatic gif.

Sometimes you gotta block out the world. Spend time for yourself, quite time, or alone time, whatever you think helps.

[RoxyRollah]

I am alone Neo.I've never felt more alone in all of my life and I like being alone but this is an errie creepy alone.


So alone that if I litterally was erased from the planet tomrrow aint a soul that would care. Straight up.Ive begged The Lord to just take me and stop killing my family on both sides. Hes obviously waaaay to busy to hear my cries right now.

[Key]

Originally Posted by RoxyRollah

No its not melodramatic. Not at all. You litterally have no idea how ****ed up of a week I've been through.litterally the worst week of 32 years and Ive been **** on by my job which if I called HR heads would roll from the top down. My half sister died 2 months to the day from dad. But I dont tell you all that I try and talk about something that is distracting enough like politics so Im not a blubbering mess. I have no vacation time because I used it when my other sister and dad passed did they put me in for bereavement pay no. They used my vaction and sick days. So today was the funeral for my half sister and African American communities have long drawn out funerals **** Ive seen em jump in the casket with the body. But my nephew wanted me to see it so he sent me pictures of her in the ****ing coffin.Now my half sister passed away on the 12th ok regardless of my bosses "vacation" and my lack of funds because well 3 funerals in 6 months is exspensive. Regardless I should have not been anywhere near the store. Ok all week because she didnt just die oh no she was on life support since the 20th of may and my black family was tryna get me on facebook but to no avail. Because I deactivated my account. Anyways I had to help my neices and nephews make the discision to pull the plug. And during all this was the whole uncle melvin killt granny saga.what I didnt realize is that uncle melvin was tryna put the kids outta the family home....so ok boss on vacation just me and another manager working doubles.They both knew what was going on with me and why Ive been deeeply depressed, losing weight and kinda dispondant right so when I drove to work today Im getting pictures of her funeral.I walked in distraught. And my assistant sent me home cried with me ...I get home. And this is a copy and paste message that the gm sent me...

"I know it's tough ur n a hard time.... but am I gonna have to cover u or u plan on going back to work later at least around 5? Christina had concert go to tonight"

Are you kidding me? Really? I couldnt go on bereavement leave because you were on vacation ok fine Im ok with going when you get back and I worked dbls all week me and the other manger and not one time did I complain ask to go home not ****. I got the entire back room ready for halloween and did the work of three ppl. My assistant text the gm only to havr her come in for 3 hours so she could get to her ....wait for it wait for it...slayer concert....If I hadnt been a crying mess to mojo on the phone I would have never known Slayer is playing in BRUSSELS tonight. Really thats what you two think of me that you cant let me go on my paid 5 day bereavement leave starting today rather then tomrrow? The last two funerals they aint have a choice to tell me **** like that cause I was already on a plane calling out.

Nobody called to see if I was ok today . Nobody . I drove back to work after I was told no go home I got this...And neither one of those ****s cared. 3 hours puts my boss out that much? And her assistant wasnt going to slayer so thank you Neil for sussing out I was being bull****ted.

I call them if they aint ok, cover them, send flowers, when they go into the hospital, mothers day they get homemade cakes on their birthdays. I stay late come in early.......not a one of my friends irl has called me in at least 4 months to see if I hadn't finally lost it . so yeah Im not being melodramatic. Im being real. I give more of a **** about you guys here, at work, and in my family than any of you give about me. Its ****ing evident.

Edit: even the politics dont distract because you call me mentally ill , drugged out , paranoid and show little to no tolerance for veiws that are not in sync with the majority of the forum. So yeah quite frankly none of you here or irl actually give a ****. Nope its easy to dehumanize me make me the but of your jokes, talk **** about my country, and bash the God I know hasn't abandoned me yet. And when I ask for ****ing compassion Im told were dicks get over it..... No I wont get over it try having a ****ing soul people. Sheeyot.

Perhaps stepping away from the computer and taking a breather would be healthy.

[djchameleon]

Originally Posted by RoxyRollah

I am alone Neo.I've never felt more alone in all of my life and I like being alone but this is an errie creepy alone.


So alone that if I litterally was erased from the planet tomrrow aint a soul that would care. Straight up.Ive begged The Lord to just take me and stop killing my family on both sides. Hes obviously waaaay to busy to hear my cries right now.

I know this is a rough time but if the Lord decided to take you it wouldn't stop him from continuing to take family members on both sides of your family. When it is their time to go it is their time to go. Obviously it isn't your time to go yet so stop all that nonsense about trying to sacrifice yourself for others. Lord is a righteous and just entity.

[Lisnaholic]

I'm sorry to hear about the deaths in your family, Roxy. It must be very difficult to've had so many in such a short time. As other posters have suggested, it sounds like you should treat yourself to some Roxy time; do what makes you comfortable, do what makes you relax, treat yourself to something nice. It's a terrible cliché, but time does heal wounds - that's why people keep saying it; the sting of something horrible slowly gets less, even if the horrible thing can't be fixed.

If I may make some comments about work and MB, it would be this:-

i) in my experience, the world of work has become a harsh and impersonal place. You (= anyone) may think you are building up a good reputation and friendships, but all that can disappear in a minute. As a footballer once remarked, "You're only as good as your last kick." Years of great performance can be disregarded in an instant when circumstances require it, so I have found it unwise to make too much emotional investment in my various jobs. I'm lucky because I really enjoy my work, but I'm under no illusions; I'm there to produce the goods and the minute I'm not doing that, I'll be thrown overboard without a second thought.

ii) You're a very nice person, and without doubt a popular person on MB, but there's a limit to how much sympathy we give each other here. My feeling is that sometimes there's too much testosterone flooding around - too many young bucks ready to bash antlers with each other. In an atmosphere like that people aren't inclined to publicly show their softer side; it's a sign of weakness that may be ridiculed. I'm sure there are other interpretations, but to me that's one reason why, to MB's discredit, it is not a good place from which to expect sympathy.

On a related note, MB has become an increasingly male-dominated arena; Awsugar, Pedestrian, VEGANGELICA, Burning Down, Vanilla have all left, so we really need you, Roxy! You are the one brave girl who can tolerate the sausage fest that MB has become.

[RoxyRollah]

I dont want smpathy thats not what I need .A liitle bit of compassion and a kind word goes a loooooong way.