A sabattical isn't going to change the way people look at me.
I'm sorry but the stuff that has been said really hurt me an awful lot.
It's just unfair to talk that way about someone's handicap. It isn't even neccesary.
I've seen Dirty doing it a couple of days ago, now Freebase and all I see is people understanding what freebase says. Yes I did get some great PM's, but all they say is "don't bother". Almost no one says 'the guy hasn't got a clue what he's on about'.
This sort of gives me the idea that people do see his point, even though he is very, very wrong.
And I am sorry to be all dramatic, but I've really been crying my eyes out reading that ****. It's not like I can just 'get over it'. It's not like this is not going to happen again. Apparently this is the way some people think about me. They're wrong, but I'm not going to be able to change it, or am I?

Listen, I got to get up early tomorrow so I'm going to bed now.
I'll sleep on it for a night and I'll see what I think about this tomorrow.

If I'm very open and honest what I would like is this
1. An apology (not going to happen)
2. People never ever judging me again (not going to happen)

I don't want to loose the people I like either, Pedestrian.
But I am just not so sure who likes me anymore.
I thought Freebase liked me, I thought Dirty liked me.

The second is something you'll have to come to terms with, as everyone else does, I'm afraid. The way one user feels about you is not the be all and end all. If your self esteem relies so heavily on what others think of you, then I'm afraid you will have a very difficult go of things, as it is an impossibility to earn the respect and positive opinions of everyone you meet.

Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that the words said have not been hurtful, but you simply can't allow them to colour your view of every poster here, or your perceptions of yourself.

it doesnt color the view of every poster, but hearing the same thing from two people is really a lot for me.
It's not like I dislike the entire forum, it's just that the pain these words cause me really is too much. Even if only those two people would only talk to me like that, I still wouldn't be able to stand it if it were to happen more often. Also, who are they to judge? The spill your guts topic is about the person on the forum, right? Why are they leaving comments on the way I live my personal life, even though they've never even met me in real life?

Well, I'm sorry to hear you admit defeat so easily. You'll be welcome back if you change your mind.

I doubt anyone seriously dislikes you s_k.
What you need to understand is this is only the internet...not real life.
Dirty and Freebase don't know you no more than you truly now them.

Internet judgements need to be taken with pinch of salt and a thick skin.
Take praise and criticism for what it's worth...nothing.

I for one would be sad to see you go.
Now stop being such a mard arse tosser and stick around long enough to change people's minds if that's what you want.

Personally, I think you'd be better off not caring. People like that.

Even the fact that you've posted your intentions to leave in your own intro thread rather than tackle the issue with another tells me a lot about you.

You're Dutch...relax. :)


@Pedestrian...whoever made you a mod, was a genius.

I think that's a pretty easy question to answer.

You've been here around 6 months and amassed something like 1600 posts and that's excluding lounge posts which seems to be your main habitat. I reckon realistically you've probably made at least 5000 posts in that time, and as Freebase (And not only him I might add) has said , your main topic of conversation seems to be about yourself.

Maybe the reason people are getting personal is because you share so much of your personal life on here. There have been plenty of times when I've read one of your posts and thought to myself after reading it 'Why on earth did he decide to share this , I really don't want to know this.'
In fact sometimes it's difficult to come into any thread at all and manage to avoid you talking about this kind of stuff because you post so frequently.

I find you annoying sometimes. Which is fine, people find me annoying but I certainly don't hate you.
If you do decide to come back (and I hope you do) maybe you should learn to edit your thoughts a bit more and post a bit less, and try to stick to the topics that are being spoken about. You're a very knowledgeable person and you have a lot to offer this place, but having to wade through all the crap to get to it can be really frustrating sometimes.

s_k i responded in the spill your guts thread...but if you take the things me and FBD said that seriously then maybe the internet just isn't for you dude. Seriously nothing said was even that offensive. i dont even care you talk about yourself, i talk about myself alot and don't care who gets annoyed by any of my posts, i just dont understand why you're so upset. its like your level of being upset doesn't match up with what was said

Instead of getting upset that people judge you too harshly think about what they said as them talking about themselves, you know. Don't think they are seeing something in you think of it as they are revealing something about themselves. You know like when Dirty called you an "internet *****" think of it as that's how Dirty thinks of himself - as an "internet *****." You know when people insult you online, you have to stop blaming yourself, you have to stop thinking about those things again and again where they hurt your feelings again.

s_k, sweetie, people are always going to judge you on the internet or your life outside it. But it's how YOU see yourself is what is important, not what others think. Only YOU allow yourself to be bothered by opinions or comments people make so it's about becoming stronger inside and realising you are just as important as anyone else, disability or not.

I feel very strongly towards people with disabilities and I have worked with many of them. I am currently looking for a career path where I can stand up for those who can't speak for themselves and make sure they have all the opportunities and success in life that everyone is allowed to have. You shouldn't be treated any different from anyone else because you have a disability. As far as work goes a lot of employers/employees don't have the money or time to worry about accommodating staff with extra needs/different mental capabilities particularly in rough economic times like these. BUT it will happen, there is always going to be something for you to work for but it's up to you to find it and figure it out.

I personally would like you to stay, but if you time out I understand. :)