Confession Time: My Real Identity
 

This isn't so much of an introduction as a return.

Some of you may remember this as the account used by a member formerly known as TumorAttitude.

However she is not the one using this account right now, she gave me this account to use since she doesn't use it anymore.

I'm actually someone who used to be a regular on this forum back in the day until I was permabanned. I am boo boo.

So here's the story. I haven't thought about this place for years, but just recently I checked my LastFM shoutbox which I NEVER do and I found a message that went ignored for almost a year, it was from May 19, 2021.

A user named FillardMillmore who goes by the username SoundgardenRocks on this forum explained to me that my account has been officially unbanned.

Obviously I'm pretty late to the news, unfortunately I tried to log into my old account and I was unable to because I've completely forgotten my password, and worse yet this site didn't remember my email address.

Meanwhile FillardMillmore hasn't been active on LastFM for like a year so I doubt he'd respond to me.

But then I remembered that back in 2016 my friend Annie gave me her old account and said I could use it, I have lurked here using this account a few times but I only ever posted here like once or twice, the main reason being that I was afraid I would give away who I really am and would get banned immediately if a mod figured it out, so I didn't bother.

Well now I want to come clean since I can't log into my old account and I would like to know if my unbanning is indeed official and someone isn't playing a prank on me.

I wouldn't be surprised if even after a decade some people here still don't want me back, I got into some heated feuds that lead to me having a complete meltdown which is what got me permabanned. However I'm in my mid 30s now and my temperment is not the same as it was when I was in my early 20s, I also came out as trans way back in 2013. A lot has changed since I was banned back in 2011 or whenever it was, it's so long ago I can't even remember.

So I have a question. Can any of the mods here help me log into my old account? Because that would be great. If that's not possible I hope it's ok with everyone if I continue to use this account instead now that I've made it clear who I really am. Or I could just make a new one if I'm allowed to do that.

The legend! You banning half the forum has been forum mythology since time immemorial.

Yeah I barely remember stuff like that, that's how long it's been lol.

LOL no way

omg hiiii
nice to meet another returning forum legend <3 one of the perks of covid I suppose
the mod team did officially unban you. welcome back! sadly I'm pretty sure that this website is too ****ty to recover old accounts when the password is forgotten, so I think you're stuck with this one

Oh ****, welcome back. I've heard whisperings of how your life has changed since from some former members, how've you been?

I'm ok I guess, I honestly had no idea I was still talked about on this forum, I assumed everyone who knew me was gone by now and it was all new folks.

Considering just how long it's been I've likely forgotten a lot of people I used to interact with. :(

And yeah some things have changed for me, I came out as a trans woman 8 years ago but because I live in a crappy little rural Tennessee town where resources for trans people are completely nonexistent I haven't been able to make any kind of physical transition, I'm still not on HRT or anything and yes it freaking sucks. I still live with my grandmother as well.

Online I've remained a member of another music forum DDD which is much less active than this one and I'm on Facebook where I stay in touch with two former regulars of this forum, Annie and Ethan.

Here is my LastFM if anyone wants to follow me.

https://www.last.fm/user/kingboobs

I'm sorry you haven't been able to get much support, have you looked into trying to relocate somewhere else? I don't know the situation in its entirety, so I apologize if that hasn't been feasible. I'm friends with Ethan still on facebook, I mainly just see them ****post music and political stuff these days, which I'm cool with. I haven't been in contact with Annie lately, but I was a pretty ****ty person for a bit (to put it lightly) so we haven't interacted for a few years. I'm Alex/Loose_Lips btw.

Moving at this time is unrealistic, money is a huge obstacle and I don't want to leave my grandmother, she's 80 now and has a lot of health issues so she needs me, she likes living where we do because it's where much of our immediate family lives.

I hate living here but I just have to deal with it the best I can.

I steal Ethan’s memes from Facebook and post them in the discord server