:laughing: There is a street here called Avenue Road.

Does it intersect with Boulevard Drive?

There's a Street Road here in Philly.

Not sure what has been happening in my head, but I've been feeling really bad recently. I've noticed that I tend to really annoy people, and I feel really bad for it. I really wish I didn't bother people. I just seem to exist to be a thorn in everyone else's daily path that juts into their foot when they come into contact with it. No matter what approach I take, the result is the same. I've even talked to people I know fairly well about this, and they tell me I'm in no way a bother. I know the truth, and it angers me to see people lie so I don't end up killing myself or something. Even if I died, I would be a burden... I feel so stuck... I wish I could have never existed to spare other people my existence.

You know, I hate to talk to other people about my cool emotional problems, because I feel like such a whiny knob, but the thing is, I never feel the same way about them when they talk to me about what's up in their lives. The trick to mutually healthy emotional communication is not to beat around the bush or push away the advice people give you. It's not the sharing that stresses people out, it's the skirting around problems and making the other person feel like they can't help that does it. So my advice is to find someone who you can talk to, but don't necessarily talk to every day, like a casual, trustworthy bud, and just be frank with them, and even if they can't help, know they're doing their best.

Dude, are you opposed to maybe seeing somebody about this? I recently made the decision to start seeing a therapist for all the **** that goes on in my head. It might do you some good if you aren't seeing somebody already. If it means anything, there's a bunch of us on this board that don't find a negative thing about you. We're real people, even though we're miles away.

seq bad thoghts breed bad thoughts man so u gotta think happy thoughts

You've been dealing with problems far worse than mine, and besides I've always been, and will forever feel like this my entire life. I've tried therapy, and it's not done a single thing for me.

I don't mean to sound pushy, but one of the biggest determinants of success in therapy is the relationship between client and therapist. Sometimes it can take some hunting to find the right person for you.

I personally have no problem with you, and I think you know that the members here are not shy about telling you if you get on their nerves! I know we're only online people here, and none of us really exist, but have you considered that maybe there is no problem, that the effect you think you're having on people is all in your head? People will generally, if pushed, after sparing feelings for a while, admit if someone bugs them, so if they're saying nothing's wrong well, you know, maybe nothing's wrong?

Sorry if that sounds simplisitic, but I just wonder are you making a bigger thing out of this than it needs to be? Why do you think you annoy people?
Has anyone said anything? Or anything been said about you behind your back?