well that's surprising.

Why would you go to jail?

And are you gonna comment on looking like Tsar Nicholas II? Cause it's kind of ****ing with me.


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Oh. FFS. I completely misunderstood and thought you were getting perved on by older women. I've had decent results with vicious glaring at purveyors of unwanted attention.

some legit bitching, though.

I don't really sleep much anymore and it's starting to screw with my mind.

I kind of feel like a ghost, or like I'm here but I'm not here (does that make sense) and I keep losing track of time, large portions of time just... lost without recollection.

...Could also just be the massive amounts of sedatives that have come and gone just lately (they haven't been working...)

I've been dealing with that off and on for about 6 or 7 years now. It's really annoying.

I try and avoid websites like that because I end up finding myself relating to too many of the symptoms and descriptions listed and get freaked out.

Dis you?

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I've been having a conversation with my friend, looking back on our early teens respectively before we knew each other, and damn, I was pretty terrible back then. I haven't thought about it for a while, but my routine was basically slam some painkillers that other river rats had, huff spray paint, wander, beg for change, get those same river rats to buy me malt liquor, drink until I was comfortable enough to fall asleep on the ground in seconds, wake up at dawn feeling like shit, repeat.

Bitching because that was some shity shit.

That was only like one summer though.

Both are happening simultaneously you see, that's what makes this a strange existence.