Thanks :)

It feels like I'm stuck here sometimes. Thanks for the nice words...I really need em right now. Life is looking a bit daunting atm.

And I hope everything works out with what you posted...my complaint sounds kind of lame compared to that.

I just might...

^_^ Just keep your head up and keep me updated.
And don't compare your problems to mine. As long as people are aware that other things, are occurring around them, they can truly appreciate their lives. But it doesn't make what you have to say worse or better. It just means it's something different.
Everyone reacts to things differently.

I'm tired and I'm not asleep.

This sucks.

I can relate to an extent. It's not a pleasant feeling when someone you know does this. A friend of mine once put himself in hospital but with him it was more a moment of madness where he switched his brain off for a moment in the middle of a bout of depression and made a big mistake which he regretted and was embarrassed about afterwards rather than a thought out attempt. It's still not a nice feeling to think what could have been though.

Yeah, it just scares me every time I think about it. It really could have happened, I really could have lost someone to such a horrible death.
I don't know..
I'm almost numb to any sad emotions now.
It's a mix of the weather and how much I cried when I thought she'd ended her life.

In the same month, all my friends became part of a couple (I'm talking about 14 people here, it looks like some prehistoric mating season)... and I'm still that single person. I hate it when they look at me with pity, and they'll be "Oh, don't worry! You know we love you a lot!! You're really great", and then they're back to smooching each other. -_-

I just decided to avoid them as much as I can, for it's becoming unbearably awkward. I even spent Valentine's Day with 2 couples! I didn't invite myself, but I wonder why they did invite me to be the 5th wheel -and stupid me forgot that it was VD.
I guess I'm feeling a bit left off too, but I'll get over it...

I really hate deviantart. I'm sick of seeing all these deviations that are 16 yr old girls who take 4939593935935939539 angle shots of themselves, and put on the black and white and contrast. Or these ****ing anime drawings. Or furries. especially ****ing furries. I don't get the obsession with making yourself into a ****ing animal. Personally, I like being a human. I wouldn't mind a tail tbh...though...