That's marriage material right there. No way her head game isn't immaculate.

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im drinking water, had some coffee and monster rehab

Hello guys!!!!

Im having some chocolate Milk :)

I just got home from an extra garbage day at work, I haven't had a drink since Monday I guess, and I didn't bring my wallet with me this morning cause I knew I'd buy beer on the way home otherwise. I spent several minutes standing just inside my bedroom staring at my wallet, unwilling to take off my uniform or put my keys on the desk, about half a second from grabbing it and going back out for booze. Now I'm sitting here, wallet left where it was, still about to rush out the door at any second.

I don't even feel like I accomplished anything by resisting the urge. I just feel tired and empty and I don't know how much of it is wanting a drink and how much is just existential angst from hating my job. And my ****ing shoulder hurts.

Are you going to get some Steel Reserve then?

Nah. It helps to have a record for everyone to see so they know you failed if you do lapse. I guess.

How long are you planning on not drinking?

Sounds like you are trying to nip it in the bud.

I don't know. Maybe a week. Maybe a couple weeks. Maybe a month. Unless I end up feeling like I no longer want to drink then I doubt I'll kick it entirely. I like drinking and sobriety is ****ing boring and makes you boring 24/7 rather than just much of the time.