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I am an aspiring performance artist. My issuse is I do not know whether to forgo a college education and dedicate myself to my art or continue my education. I do not really know where to go for advice. I do not really have any friends and my family does not really express in true interest in my personal desires. I know that they want what is best for me, as do I. However, I feel like I cannot truly live my life the way they believe I should. My expreinece in college was highly uncomfortable. I remember feeling anxious, annoyed, listless, and bored. I felt like I could not handle or focus on the material as well as my peers because my mind was/is in a different place. I am sure part of their success in the classes I shared with my peers because they had a passion and goal they were following. I could easily study what I am working towards in college however, for me the environment feels so negative, I do not feel any energy or excitement. I want to create and develop myself on my own terms.

I am tired of feeling very confused and alone. I feel as though I am wasting my time and not going anywhere, which is no way for me to succeed in what I want. I feel like I need to abandon certain burdens in my life in order to move forward and succeed in my desires. I do not feel any boundaries in my way for what I want. I am determined that nothing will stop me in achieving my goal. I may fail and live a life of hardship due to lack of college education. I am not afraid of success or failure. I do not see any in-between, I will either achieve exactly what I want or fail trying.

I feel incredibly lost and confused. I feel I can truly succeed with what knowledge I have. Going back to college just does not seem like a pleasant idea for me. I feel as though I have to go after what I want now. I don't feel that I have any time to waste. I am pretty sure of what I want to do but, if anyone has any advice for me I would be extremely grateful. I need some variety in opinions about my situation. The only opinion I have recieved from anyone I know is: STAY IN SCHOOL! I suppose is the practical option but, I do not feel that there is any assurance in someone's success in a chosen path with or without a college education. I also do not believe a degree really provides any kind of secruity, to me it seems like a false secruity, at least for my chosen path. I just need to feel like I am finally living my own life and making decisions that are best for me in terms of my present, future, and my health.

Do whatever makes you happy.

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Maybe take classes online while pursuing your art. If you're really passionate about it though, not much else will matter. You'll be totally destitute, but incredibly happy.

Best of luck, man.

LOL Ok, should I go back to school, which depresses me or work towards being a singer/songwriter, which I am passionate about? Even though college offers more security, should I give it up for my passion?

Do what everyone else does. Get a shit job and complain about it your whole life, none of this singer/songwriter I have a dream I'm going to be fucking Elliott Smith.

Don't give up your passion. Give yourself a limit or something. You will mostlikey not make it, but just doing it makes you really happy, so do it for a while longer until the world is closing in on you to stop.

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1. You probably shouldn't ask an internet forum to help you with big life changing decisions.
2. Yes school sucks and it is boring and depressing, but that's life get use to it.
3. If you really wanna purse your dream you should probably finish up school so atleast you'll be able to get a decent job in case things don't go the way you hoped.