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Kay are you a Begbie or who? Hahaha I know you read Begbie's monologue but I've never thought of you as a Begbie type.

But anyway, I have to confess I am terrible at seeing myself through the eyes of other people, most of the time it's because I don't really care about the opinions of others in regards to myself, but I really do not realise how intimidating I am to other people. People take my scariness the wrong way though, I'm really like Gordon Ramsey in a lot of ways that I'm really loud and abrasive but if you're not truly a bully or a bad person then you won't really be affected by it. The only people who are truly affected by the things that I say are bullies and bad people themselves. Those people just really cannot own up to their own problems even though they know the things they say are harmful, they just do not care. I refuse to play well with people who are cruel and selfish, and anyone who wants to think less of me because of this is welcome to do so. And if you do think that, know that you'll never be respected by me at all, because I hate cowards.

I also confess, that I'm truly like a Mama Bear in that anyone I care about or even anyone who I see being bullied gets unceremoniously adopted by me and taken under my wing and I will fight the **** out of anyone who dares bully my babies, I don't give a fuq who you are. I never really notice it about myself but it is truly one of my favourite things about myself nowadays. What I really hate about other people however, is that it gets interpreted as me wanting attention but truly that reflects more on the person perceiving it as such rather than me, myself. It's pathetic to even assume that I would start fights as a way to get attention for myself, as if being a beautiful woman on the internet doesn't net me enough, but ohhh I have to start fights too! How absolutely repugnant that people have to project their massive insecurities on others and bring them down for their own gain. I'm so beyond that now, I'm doing so much to build other people up and honestly, I'm awesome for it. I used to worry about the person who I was giving kindness to would think I was weird for doing so, but how silly is that? I give genuine kindness to people, and there isn't enough of that in the world. Especially on this board.

If people wanna think stupid shit about it, that's not my problem and honestly I just feel bad for them. However, these sort of people seem to be of the mentality that I owe it to them to be friends with them or include them in things that I do here, and I'm not having that either. I guess some people just can't ignore me :) But that's okay by me! I love me and I'm happy. Too bad about anyone else's self esteem who thinks my life has anything to do with them.

It's been a long time getting to that place in my life though, but I'm finally there.

I confess that I love when people buy me presents and treats. I am an only child and have been pretty spoiled for my entire life, even though my family didn't have any money. Guys tend to show their interest when they take me to dinner or buy me chocolates. I don't actually expect it of them, but totally love it when they do! I have been told on here that I love attention and of course it's absolutely right. When you have gone through teenage years with guys and girls focusing on you (whether positive or negative) it's hard not to enjoy attention as an adult. I may act like a princess, but that's because in my eyes I am one, whether people like it or not. However as self focused as I might be, I am pretty caring. I am devoted to my friends and go out of my way to stick up for those with disabilities. I have done a lot of volunteer work for the elderly and animals too. I hope to run my own charity one day once I have got a high paying job so I can make sure that this country stops discriminating on the disabled and ensures that every business cater for them (re ramps, elevators buttons that the wheelchair bound can reach, etc).

In elementary school I once took a crap on the playground because it was too far to walk home.

ON the playground or in a bush? Haha. I rememer vomiting in the sand once after a particularly thrilling spin on the tire swing.

It was in a bush on the playground, but one of those ones that kids have hollowed out and turned into a fort.

That's absolutely vulgar.

Yeah, well, I didn't make a habit of crapping where other kids play, at least.

ha!

Or crapping on a boyfriend, I suppose that's commendable as well

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(coincidentally that smiley is called "tramp")