Yep the old "oh you're doing that!, I'm married and have x amount of kids blah , blah , blah"........I don't care for their ideals of domestic bliss. Nine times out of ten it's shelter for their failings

Pretty much. I'd like to get married someday, and have a successful marriage of love, but I'm not partial to the whole go to college, get a degree, buy a white house with a white picket fence, have an expensive white wedding, have three kids, drive a cadillac, send kids to private school, invest in stock market, retire, move to Florida thing.

I just want things to stay the way they are, as they are today. (Of course, I hope there will be a wedding, but that's all I ever hope to change.) And we'll get some cats and grow old together in our own way.

And it's not anyone's goddamn business, especially not my acquaintances. They may as well be strangers and I couldn't give any less of a damn.

I often think I'm wired wrong. None of the "marriage, settle down and whatnot" has ever appealed to me. Might go someway to explaining why so many women have left me

Personally, I don't see a purpose wasting time on someone who doesn't want to commit. It's like bleeding to death and trying to drink your own blood to stay alive. Pointless. You're going to bleed out no matter how you try to fix it. I walked away from someone I had every intention of marrying, once. Because he failed to inform me that he was gay. Like, really? Why ask a woman to marry you if you're gay?

I dunno I guess a lot of it stems from the "one day they'll walk away so why bother" mantra i've adopted

I've been lured by the pretty face, empty head types one too many times and now i''ve got older all the women i should have been looking for are settled

I have 3 basic extreme fears in this world (in order of severity) :

1. Abandonment.
2. Dying in a car wreck.
3. Getting fat.

I'm paranoid and scared a lot of the time, but I think I'm coming around to the idea that what I've got is real, and he's not going to leave. He's going to be the one who's going to be a real man (unlike the selfish pieces of shit that came before). I've waited my whole life just to not be afraid of losing the one I love; it's about time someone did the right thing. (Ki, love you, sweetie - you're the best.)

Can't say i have any major fears. I know I'll die alone. We all do. I don't fear it

I've come to accept the fact that I will die someday. What I have a hard time accepting is that the people I love will die (and will likely die before me). I could actually write quite a lot on how I came to accept my own mortality, and how I think of it almost every day. Ideally, I'd like to be cremated. I don't want to be left to rot in the ground, but I say that in consciousness - in reality, I won't be able to give a shit. :laughing:

I have a wish to be interred in my car, but it's illegal here