yeah you hate that you love them and you love that you hate them... i always contradict myself

im a bitch a lot.
i swear non stop.
i crack my knuckles/neck.
im very pessimistic.
i hate everything.
i shut myself off to the world.
im either on the computer or playing games too much, mostly on the computer

oh.. there's more.
i hate germs and i always wash my hands.
im lazy.
i have a crappy attitude.
i dont listen to my parents.

^i'm a lot like that too.
The glass is usually half empty
I tend to be angry and grouchy a lot
I complain about stuff I probably shouldn't complain about
I don't think before i speak
I have horribly low self-esteem
I'm really shy
I'm a terrible listener
I'm annoying as hell sometimes
a lot of the time I'm one of those people who when i'm really mad at someone my life revolves around them
I crack every bone in my body that I possibly can

^whoa. that is like, a perfect explaination of me. but im more shy around guys and people i dont know, but mainly guys.

when i'm around people I don't know I don't say a word. My head goes empty or something. If a friend is there that helps, but when i don't know anyone I get really uncomfortable.

lol. yeah, my friend does that too. like when people are talking to me, i go blank and she answers all the questions.. i dont know why i do this, i wish i wouldnt do it though. it gets really annoying. like, when i want to talk to people, i just cant bring myself to do it. and they are right there.. and i just cant get the words out of my mouth.

same here, either I can't think of anything to say to them, i can't bring myself to say it, or i do say it but 90% of the time end up saying it too quiet for them to hear

haha. and then they are all like, "what?" and then i feel stupid and dont wanna repeat it again..

YES! exactly