I should think that they would rot in there. Then you'd just have a smelly potato sack with a couple dried up, oozing testicles. What a freak.

Unexpectedly got myself a new phone today. Just thought I'd have a gander in CEX to swee what they had and there was one called Galaxy Ace gt which looked like it might be a suitable replacement for my HTC wildfire ****e. They gave me 67 for my HTC and the Galaxy was 65 so I made 2 quid and got a phone that hasn't got a **** camera/camcorder and best of all the wi-fi hotspot works solving not only my laptop internet connex problem but also my loneliness problem. Paul's not replied to my text from last night. Part of me thinks I did the right thing 'cause he offended me mightilty 2 yrs. ago but we've known each other for 25 yrs although we were only really in touch from 83-90 & 08 or 09-the day before yesterday. ha ha ha. and so I do feel a bit sentitmental that all that friendship and time has been thrown in the garbage. What really pisses me off now is that although I did think if i won the lotto I'd make him pay for what he said at other times I thought I'd treat him to a few nights out and a new phone and pay for him to go on holidays or trips to see solar eclipses and ****, Unlike my brother who I know I never give anythhing to if I won the lotto...not even the time of day. Except money to pay for medicl bills if one of his brats had some ultra-rare form of leukima that only a top Yank doctor could treat. So if he didn't get that positive thing from my text last night and just focused on the fact I'd told him I'd just been using him and hated his guts etc. etc. then maybe he should have. I've also realised he's now just thinking he's been used and pissed about that when he should be thinking 'what a crap friend I must have been to drive someone to treat my like ****'. ha ha ha.

I would put those in my mouth.

Saw another prostitute tonight. In total contrast to the one last night, this one was doddering along in front of me barely able to walk straight, obviously out of her head. She was much sexier than any of the others I’ve seen with an arse to die for but because a cop car had just gone by I just walked passed her and didn't even try to look around at her face which I now regret because as I was walking on she actually spoke to me saying 'hello love’ in a very airy flirty manner again totally in contrast to the one last night who was very unflirty and obviously sober and not making any show of trying to be overtly sexy. I can’t quite put my finger on the one from last night. Usually you can tell if somones working or middle class but I couldn’t with her. She was also sort of dressed down looking more like a country bumpkin or something than a city hooker but this one tonight was acting as feminine as they come. I also, on the way back, saw another woman who might have been Cheryl although I’d crossed to the other side of the rd. from where they mainly walk by then. Whoever it was strode along puffing on a *** looking like a caricature of a confident brassy whore. I’m going to have to start wearing my glasses. If it was Cheryl she seemed to be giving off a very different aura to what she usually does. It also means if it was Cheryl that I’ve now seen her and her me twice without us speaking which considering I’m infatuated with her is a bit worrying.

Tl;dr.

ha ha ha. Love how it's edited out f a g.

What's wrong with that?

Talked to friend. Did not go well. Ended in anger. Haven't spoken in two days. Beginning to think that imploding/exploding would have been better than what actually happened.

Well its not offensive in that context is it? In case you dont k ow f a g is jusr a slang word ufor cigarette used all the time in tne u.k .

I actually do know that, but I don't think the word is used in that context as often as it's used in other contexts.