I might be doing the same but replace Counter Strike with GTA V and Beyond Two Souls. Replace wine with vodka and everything else is the same.


I need to just chillax after what I feel was a defeat yesterday. We had this big protest/action but nothing went as planned and it ended up being a really big mess.

Some of our members almost got into a fight with this other group but it was pretty much a big argument/screaming match. Just super stressful for no reason.

It's so stupid that we can't come together for the same cause of helping out the community. There is too much in-fighting when there doesn't need to be. We have similar goals but they can't see that because of personal beef.

I'm losing my grandfather in a few days.

I've only had one grandfather. My dad's father died when he was 13 so I obviously never knew him. I only had one. I'm the oldest of the twelve grandchildren. I knew him when he wasn't an old man. I knew him when he was marching in the drum corps and frying up burgers at Johnny and Hanges. If you're from NJ then you know exactly how good of a cook my grandfather was. I think it was that lifestyle, working there for so many years, that finally did him in. It started last year when he got colon cancer. He beat the sh*t out of that, just like my mother did. Then he had multiple knee surgeries and a hernia, the first of four hernias. Then came the mini strokes. All those years of horrible eating caused blockage in his heart and brain and his body finally gave out. He lost about 20% of his motor functions and was just miserable trying to speak and eat and function. He'd suffer tiny seizures that would send him to the hospital and he just wasn't having any fun.

Then came the three hernias that caused him to have to have a huge surgery. They had to take him off his blood thinners to conduct the surgery and two massive strokes occurred either during or after the surgery. Right now he's blind, deaf, paralyzed, and has little to no cognitive functions. They're taking him off life support in the next couple of days.

I don't know how to feel really. I haven't really cried yet. I've been sort of mentally preparing myself for this I guess over the last week. Geez this has been a horrible f*cking year. I'm beating myself up because I really haven't seen him at all since all this has happened cause I've been so busy with work and I convinced myself that he didn't want to be bothered because in realty that's partly true but I miss my f*cking grandfather.

**** you 2013. You know what, I'm getting too bitter. This strip is going to make me cry but it always comforts me during these kind of times. I only have one grandparent left and I'm going to take her out to dinner soon. You just don't get second chances to do these things...

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How can your grasp of the English language be so horrendous?

Don't drink and type.

Sorry to hear Exo. My condolences. Calvin and Hobbes are one of the best.

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that's fucking rough. I don't even know what to say but I will at least say my condolences.

I know what its like to lose a grandfather who I really adored and who adored me. He worked at the same job for 40 years and dealt with second hand smoke from my nana which we think caused him to have three tumors in his head which we discovered way too late. We took him off life support, took him back to nana's and I held his hand as he died. I still cry when I think about him to this day. He visits me in dreams sometimes and a month before he died I predicted his death through a dream which mirrored exactly to how I found out (while I was at school). I hope you are okay Exo. Xx