July 2014: I was making $52.88 an hour, was married, had two dogs and a cat, hadn't had any mental or physical health issues in ages, and was living in an 1,800 square foot, two story townhouse.

March 2018: I'll be making $12.50 an hour, will be divorced, no animals, have had one health issue after the other, and will be living in a 175 square foot van..... down by the river.

So why am I so chill about it all? I'm also happy, relieved, and even very excited about what's around the corner.

I feel like a walking cliche about mid-life changes.

So happy today! I've redressed the living and dining room picture windows letting in a WORLD of light my home has never seen before. What an incredible difference! It will do wonders for both me and all my new houseplants.

Maybe you’re so chill about it because you haven’t really suffered. You’re the only person I know, even online, you* appears to be soliciting pity while simultaneously rubbing it in people’s faces how good you have it.

You don't know me so don't make assumptions.

Are you ****ing serious? How good I have it? Have you not been paying attention around here. Did you not read my previous post?

Sometimes you are so cool, but every now and then you have to remind everyone that you're still one of the biggest jerks on this board.

This is another in a number of instances lately where you've been hitting me with ill-informed, ignorant, and down right nasty and personal comments. What the **** is your beef dude?

:laughing:

RIP self-awareness

Maybe you don't know how to feel, Chula, or maybe you just realized that losing all of that wasn't as bad as you thought it'd be. Maybe it feels good to let go of the stress of losing those things. Maybe those things never really made you happy and you realize that nothing has really changed. Or maybe you're chemically imbalanced.

As somebody who has seen his worst fears come true over and over again in life, I can tell you that sometimes that's just how it works. You lose so much and you know you should feel devastated but you just don't. Maybe neither of them know what it's like to face hard times, or maybe they're just petty enough to take any opportunity they can to kick you while you're down. This is why you should typically avoid bringing personal stuff on to the internet. The people who don't like you are much quicker to rub it in your face when they don't have to do it to your face, when they don't have to realize there's an actual human behind that screen name.

And sometimes they have a haircut so bad that reality just straight up refuses to accept it, and replaces it with a hole to the eternal void from which demonic tendrils oft protrude.

I don't know if it applies to you, but sometimes all that stuff that people have (possessions and responsibilities) can be like chains. Pocket philosophy, perhaps, but I believe there's something to it.
You could put it like this: I don't think your average buddhist monk is unhappy.

Totally applies. Realizing it has just been a bit of a mind ****.