Em Rof Si Siht

TrampInaTux · 09-08-2006, 02:23 PM

I wrote this a while ago. I even wrote it backwards so no one would be able to read it even if they did find it. I feel like a loser for writing it, but I really needed to at the time. It was something I just really needed to do. This was after I had the conversation with MJ and I was really going through a rough patch with everything, and I went on holiday nearing the point of breakdown and I just sat down and wrote this. It started off as just one of my usual songs, but then developed into a full blown poem with everything poured out into it. I don't quite know why I'm posting it up here, it's just cos I've got no one to talk to about this and I suppose I need someone to read this, even though I don't want to go shoving it in peoples faces. So what better way to show it to people than to show it to total strangers on MB? Here it is, I know it isn't very good but it's the most truthful thing I've ever written.

Liquid mascara lyrics
on the back of a bus seat
behind two lovers typecast as more exhibitionists
Be free, you are creations
made to have these feelings
You won't be stopped by standards
Burn down those barricades
It is not common to be open
Embrace your youth, it is short
Life can end suddenly, y'know
Don't spend it in other peoples thoughts
Right time right place in your life
maybe that's all it is
or maybe it's only
a small part of it
What would he say, eh?
If he saw you now
Limping through every day
In a most mature way
This isn't you, is it?
When did this all change?
You could only answer that question
if it was possible to know
This is your present to yourself
The girft of growth
is it nature's own?
or was it man made?
Ponder that thought
With his cold hands in your grasp
Feel them sift between your fingers
feel the strings of your heart begin to rust
How can your world crumble?
how can he turn into dust?
Can I restart without dancing in your ashes?
Make it all seem possible again
Make life seem undaunting
Make the pen and paper touch
mean just as much?
Ah, when did all these depths appear?
Could I be so selfish
as to make this a milestone in my life?
So wrapped up in ourselves we forget
just how wrapped up we are
Mate, I don't want to be sensitive
I don't want to cry on show
Does this make me hit til my hands are sore?
The answer to that I don't know
Everyone says no one understands
But they are lying
How can no one know
when they tell them all the time?
No one wants to deal with me aswell
No one is ready yet
When will they be?
That's for me to decide
Until you can open up my brain
and drink my thoughts
then you shall not know
I'm quite content with that
yet apparently I'm sinking inwards
And I thought I was straightforward
huh
people will find this.
people will read this.
people will try and understand.
people will fail.
I am not complicated
but unfortunately life is
I will continue too love
The one thing I'm good at
And stage my tiny rebellions
in the ampitheatre universe
I'll keep your eyes submerged in mine
Friends, Father, Son
We are one.

09-08-2006, 02:23 PM	#1 (permalink)
TrampInaTux that's my war face. Join Date: Nov 2005 Posts: 1,418	Em Rof Si Siht I wrote this a while ago. I even wrote it backwards so no one would be able to read it even if they did find it. I feel like a loser for writing it, but I really needed to at the time. It was something I just really needed to do. This was after I had the conversation with MJ and I was really going through a rough patch with everything, and I went on holiday nearing the point of breakdown and I just sat down and wrote this. It started off as just one of my usual songs, but then developed into a full blown poem with everything poured out into it. I don't quite know why I'm posting it up here, it's just cos I've got no one to talk to about this and I suppose I need someone to read this, even though I don't want to go shoving it in peoples faces. So what better way to show it to people than to show it to total strangers on MB? Here it is, I know it isn't very good but it's the most truthful thing I've ever written. Liquid mascara lyrics on the back of a bus seat behind two lovers typecast as more exhibitionists Be free, you are creations made to have these feelings You won't be stopped by standards Burn down those barricades It is not common to be open Embrace your youth, it is short Life can end suddenly, y'know Don't spend it in other peoples thoughts Right time right place in your life maybe that's all it is or maybe it's only a small part of it What would he say, eh? If he saw you now Limping through every day In a most mature way This isn't you, is it? When did this all change? You could only answer that question if it was possible to know This is your present to yourself The girft of growth is it nature's own? or was it man made? Ponder that thought With his cold hands in your grasp Feel them sift between your fingers feel the strings of your heart begin to rust How can your world crumble? how can he turn into dust? Can I restart without dancing in your ashes? Make it all seem possible again Make life seem undaunting Make the pen and paper touch mean just as much? Ah, when did all these depths appear? Could I be so selfish as to make this a milestone in my life? So wrapped up in ourselves we forget just how wrapped up we are Mate, I don't want to be sensitive I don't want to cry on show Does this make me hit til my hands are sore? The answer to that I don't know Everyone says no one understands But they are lying How can no one know when they tell them all the time? No one wants to deal with me aswell No one is ready yet When will they be? That's for me to decide Until you can open up my brain and drink my thoughts then you shall not know I'm quite content with that yet apparently I'm sinking inwards And I thought I was straightforward huh people will find this. people will read this. people will try and understand. people will fail. I am not complicated but unfortunately life is I will continue too love The one thing I'm good at And stage my tiny rebellions in the ampitheatre universe I'll keep your eyes submerged in mine Friends, Father, Son We are one.