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A few new ones for y'all. I've unfortunately been putting some incredibly dirty substances into my body as of late, so these deal with drugs, addiction, and the accompanying storm. This is something I've written about before, but I feel that, for the most part, these are significantly different from my previous works.

I've attempted to label the stanzas to make them easier to analyze. Unlike the rest, the first has no labels as it is non-lyrical poetry.

I plan to explain and analyze some of these very soon, but I welcome criticism and questions if you have them.

Thank you for reading. I hope you enjoy what I've done here.
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UNTITLED

Self-destruction
Is a funny thing
Like the Sun refusing to rise
An old star refusing to fall
Denial of nature
In exchange for nothing at all

Inclination
To watch an empty sky
Searching for the meaning of life
Or a reason why we die
Oh God
Oh God, why?

We've made our bed
And always knew we'd lie in it
But not like this
Already dead
Long before we lay down our head

Go to sleep

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UNTITLED

Verse 1
The most haunting phantom
Is not made of ectoplasm
Just lots of drugs and cheap rum
The real horror...is yet to come

Chorus
Let's analyze the human condition
The end of life and the transition
Let's analyze all of our conditions
Over a bump and a few beers
Let's over-analyze all our fears

Verse 2a
People say they want the truth
But they couldn't understand 'em
Explanations of pain and tantrums
They've never seen my phantoms
Nor ODed on ectoplasm
Just hand me that cheap rum
I'll wait...for the worst...to come

Verse 2b (Bridge?)
People say they want the truth
But most just wanna play the sleuth
To tell you what you shouldn't do
Aah... **** you

Repeat Chorus

Altered Chorus
Let's analyze the human condition
The end of life and the transition
Let's analyze all of our conditions
Over a bump and a few beers
Let's over-analyze all our fears
Every single one
Till we come undone
Isn't this fun?
Isn't this fun?

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BREAKING EVEN

Verse 1
Even considering where I've been
I can't believe this is where I am
Even considering any, every sin
No one should ever feel like this

Verse 2
Even though I deserve less than nothing
I still wonder if that's too much
Even though I'm glad to feel something
No one should ever, ever feel this way

Chorus
I've made decisions that weren't okay
And done naught as I began to fray
But just for one day, I need a break
Just one day, and then my dues, I'll gladly pay

Verse 3
Pay for everything I ever did
Even if the cost is my right to live
That's fine by me, if it is to be
Even if everything I must give
I'll accept it, won't struggle, not a bit

Repeat chorus

Verse 4
Even though I've got hell to pay
I'll take my punishment without a fight
Even though I've got more to say
I'll shut my mouth, and accept my fate

Bridge
Even with all this goddamned pain
I would die to have one more day
Without worry, regret, stress, or hate
Even with all this goddamned pain
I would make this my greatest day
And feel what it is to be okay
Before I fade beneath my fear and hate

Repeat verse 1

Repeat chorus

Altered chorus
I've made myself into something not okay
And failed to think I could ever fray
But just for one day, I need a break
Just one day, and then my dues, I'll gladly pay
I'll gladly pay

Coda x 4-8 (using the final line only as part of the final repetition)
One more day
Even half
One more chance
(Then I'll gladly pay)
To break even

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BREAKING ODD

Chorus (Refrain?)
I will break
Even before I hit the floor

Verse 1
Let's ignore every single fact
And the problems we should get past
In favor of grass and powdered glass
And half the night spent flat on your ass

Repeat chorus

Verse 2
Let's raise the black flag fast
The only way past half-mast
So what if we have no class
We are not ever coming back

Altered chorus
You would break
Even before you hit the floor

Repeat chorus

Bridge x 2
I set out to break even
But only broke odd
Sold any chance try again
So here I am, messed up and looking like a fraud

(the line below is used soon before the following verse, though not so soon that they could be thought to be part of the same stanza)
Oh well...**** it

Verse 3
Let's save the very best for last
Right before a hellish spell is cast
That'll leave me not intact
(Breaking odd)
Oh god, last time I ignore the facts

(guitar solo)

Verse 4
Said last time I ignore the facts
But wait since I'm strapped in, set
For what are sure to be final acts
I'll prepare for multiple impacts
Let's hope they're the most dramatic yet
For they're the last I'll ever get

Coda x 3-6 (the final line is only used in the final repetition; there is a brief pause between the fourth and fifth lines)
Breaking odd
A bet with God
Over how long it takes
For heaven's sake
Breaking odd
Just one more nod
One more high
Before I break
Oh, before I break
Oh, before I hit the floor

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SPENT (96 HOUR DAY)

Verse 1
These ninety-six hour days
Are ****ing killing me
But they always told me
"Live like you're dying"

Chorus
Now I'm feeling spent
Like money for the rent
Now I'm feeling spent
My body comes to collect this debt

Verse 2
A ninety-six hour daze
Might cost everything
Guess it's a good thing
I sold it all yesterday

Repeat chorus

Verse 3
Ninety-six hours and counting
More and more to get high
It's enough to make some cry
Tears of increasing potency
Spawning tales of no legitimacy

Bridge
Crystalline negativity
Medicine or poison?
Loss of individuality
And one choice: life or death?

Repeat chorus

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