****. Ever since I started on medication I've been doing better. Haven't really wallowed in self pity too much for over a year now. Not happy by any stretch of the imagination, but at least I don't get those dark spirals of negative thoughts that just won't go away. Now for whatever reason I'm starting to reflect on everything that wrong with myself and my life and I can see what's happening. It's not so bad, but it's just so easy and comfortable to wallow in self hatred and your own martyrdom. God I hope this is an isolated case. I don't need this ****. Maybe I just need to stop staring up at the ceiling in the dark and looking at my own hand while listening to Radiohead. That might help.
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Originally Posted by J.R.R. Tolkien
There is only one bright spot and that is the growing habit of disgruntled men of dynamiting factories and power-stations; I hope that, encouraged now as ‘patriotism’, may remain a habit! But it won’t do any good, if it is not universal.
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