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Originally Posted by Chula Vista
It's all about perspective and how YOU choose to deal with things Rissa. Your glass always seems to be half empty. Not a good way to go through life.
Do me a favor and tell me 5 things that you are thankful for.
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I'm really trying. I'm not always miserable. I've been making a point to listen to some of my favorite music when I'm doing morning maintenance on the salesfloor before the store opens, which has upped my energy a tiny bit but throughout the day I sort of just... lose it.
I'm usually a decent person. I'm a functioning human being most of the year but once winter hits I don't even know what the hell my brain is doing. It just decides it's going to make me think of terrible things, dwell on s
hit that happened years ago that I normally don't care about, and force me into a barely ambulatory state.
Caffeine sort of helps a little but the crash is intense. I have the worst migraine I've ever had in my life right now, and I never usually get headaches.
So it's really not that I'm not trying. I'm taking care of myself the best I can during my time of need, and just trying so hard to get through the winter, get through the holiday season and hope that the next one is easier.
I still have my sense of reasoning so it's easy for me to list 5 things I'm thankful for.
- I'm thankful that I have a job that's given me health insurance.
- I have an extended family that adores me.
- My cat is healthy and well fed.
- I have a boyfriend who loves me.
- It may be cold outside but it's warm inside our apartment.
I have a good life. I just don't have a very good level of dopamine in my brain right now.