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i found myself swimming in a river.
i saw some scriptures as i swam faster and faster.
there were objects following me.
they were your eyes. watching me as i do anything.
im seeing that you watch me.
to see if i make the mistake that you predict i would make.

you dont seem to get it.
how i can just live my own life and remain by myself.
i dont like it when i have to come to you only because i live with you.
i dont believe i need to listen to you.
but a small word can lead into an argument with you.

i cant believe you would take something so precious away from me.
because when im around you.
i feel my heart stop.
its like something wants me to not be living when im around you.
it gives me hints.
i believe its saying for me to let myself go.

i dont want to because of you.
but i dont know...