I have an appointment with at the local so-called “free” clinic (it’s not really free but at least they try to serve people). When they refer people they set you up with appointments. I’m afraid of their mental health services because I’m familiar with from working with them when I taught special ed. It’s not their fault but by serving everyone the atmosphere is notoriously (no pun intended) crazy. Anyway, I need help getting on the right meds and off the wrong ones and I have other health problems I’ve been ignoring. Anyway, it’s not until December but I think I’m going to be alright. After taking three days off I was actually in good spirits at work. Probably too good because when I get that like that I usually crash and get really sad. It’s like doing drugs without drugs. My finances are bad but I’m thinking to put in for the entire month of February off. My plan was to kill myself if I was still in Florida on Jan. 1 2020 but I don’t have the money to leave or the stomach for suicide. I had the same plan when they cancelled my last credit card but filing for bankruptcy was pretty easy and it’s been like a year I guess and hasn’t really changed my life. I haven’t even tried to get any credit even though I’ve gotten offers. I don’t know. Bankruptcy really isn’t that bad if you have to do it don’t be scared. They really do stop harassing you once you file. I’m worried about taking on medical debt but first we’ll just see what’s up.
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