You kidding? I've been doing **** all the last four years but playing video games at my mother's house. No job, no life, no friends but the one. And aside from a vague desire to be self-sufficient I don't even really care all that much about it. The world doesn't much care for me and the feeling is mutual. Not in a suicidal way, I just fart in the world's general direction.

There is nothing better than feeling free. Get out and do something, put some fresh air in the old lungs. Nobody says you have to socialise but being outdoors is so good for you. I enjoy being outside alone most because I find most people I know don't appreciate it as much as me. I just like to bask in the beauty of Scotland.

I'm not confined to the house. I get out a fair amount, I just don't really enter into the world of people when I do so. It's more an internal hermitage than a physical one.

Eh, I have really bad social anxiety. To the point of normally when I'm in a crowd I have at least a slight panic attack. Well, maybe those two aren't directly connected, Idk. I have tons of anxiety period. Not sure its a disorder or whatever.

I probably have bipolar disorder though the diagnosis not ready yet. If not I have only depression that comes ans goes. I have dyslexia, social anxiety and I take pills because of it, I am colour blind when it comes to green and red. I get irritated easily when I'm feeling hyperactive and out of control.

and I'm lazy.

Christmas must be pretty boring for you.

I'm blue/purple and red/green colorblind bro and sometimes lazy. Welcome to the club brah

I think there's a part of myself that's afraid of being a normal, happy and functional human being. So whenever I start moving in a positive direction I get this overwhelming urge to just **** things up for myself. I blew off an interview today to get blazed and watch TV. Wtf, self?

its a self fulfilling prophecy i have experienced


it comes from ppl over the yrs maybe tellin u that you will not succeed or are a loser or whatever other negative things. and it also comes from your own belief somewhere inside u that u dont deserve the success ----- that the prospects of success is unwarranted. that u have not lived a life worthy of glory.


when in reality u must find ur fuel. convert negativity to positivty for fuel for the journey towards your own personal glory..... at times u must have the mantlaity of a one man army, one man vs the world and set out to conquer it. its all about the process and striving. you can do it but everyday you wait to start is a day youve wasted

In Japan they call people like you hikikomori.