What Is Your Biggest Fear?
Since my sister passed away, my mom, grandma and I have been caring for her 4 children. In the not-so-distant future, I will be caring for 2 elderly people and 4 children all by myself. That scares the shit out of me.
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I have a few categories that I feel each need to be an answer to this question.
I don't fear death too much. I just hope I don't die from a fire of some sort. My dad is a firefighter. I've seen pictures. I've been shown these photos in order to be safer in the future with fire prevention. He also showed me the Station House fire in CT for the first time. I scope out fire exists in every new building I step in now. His handling of this is both incredibly cruel and has added a gigantic fear to my life but is also very responsible and has caused me to really be safe about these things. I check outlets and stuff a lot. I've caught two fires before they got out of control at friends houses because of this. An immediate physical fear I have is heights. That one grew as I got older. I used to climb trees and sh*t. I can't do that anymore. I get panic attacks, albeit small, when I do touristy things like climbing bell towers and stuff. I did the Precipice Trail when I was in Acadia and it was basically an hour long anxiety attack all the way up. Looked like this... https://www.citrusmilo.com/acadiagui...icetrail01.jpg Finally, I've been having a lot of existential fear lately about the people I love. So I guess, right now, the biggest fear I have as I get older is losing the people that I rely on for guidance, company, and love. The fear of being alive yet alone is just something I'm not ready for even though I genuinely like being alone. As much as I am solitary, I love calling my friends or having dinner with my family. I just like to spend my free time by myself. The fear of never knowing when our time will be up is what scares me the most. |
Intellectual complacency
Becoming my father Wildfires |
I’m afraid that whatever in me that snapped is irreparable. That I’m not climbing out of this hole mentally, physically, or financially.
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Both. Got it.
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I have a weird fear of deep waters. Just looking at a world map and imagining how vast and deep the dark blue areas in the large oceans are gives me the willies.
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I also have the fear of big water. I didn't know I had it until I went out on a chartered fishing boat.
We got out to where I couldn't see the land and I freaked. Went below and stayed there drinking the rest of the day. As long as I can see the land, I'm ok. I'm not a good swimmer, and if the boat sinks, I'm goin g to drown. But, if I can see land, at least I know I'm swimming the right way. The thought of swimming away from land and not knowing it...FREAKED OUT. Anyhow, that's not my biggest fear. My biggest fear is the same as any parent. Losing my kids. You're not supposed to outlive your children. |
MERIT's going down dark paths today....
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Linked to that, my biggest fear of course is dying before my sister. It's not just the dying (well, it is: that scares the **** out of me) but also thinking how she would get along without me. At my age, the constant fear of course is that I'll get cancer or some other horrible disease. Also, I've had small, very small, episodes of either forgetting what I've just done or what I wanted to do, or doing something silly like putting a cup in the microwave and then opening the fridge to take it out, and I really really REALLY hope I'm not down for the Big A. That would scare the living crap out of me. |
I am less scared of death now than I was a few years ago.
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nope. the idea that you, me, everyone we have ever met and will ever meet will someone day be nothing more than a very distant memory is absolutely terrifying to me.
would say i’m more scared of dying young than anything else though |
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And when I realize what is happening everyone will be too busy laughing to even realize or care that I am destroyed. |
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https://scontent.fsan1-2.fna.fbcdn.n...03&oe=5B7B8B2A Chick is crazy. Quote:
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-xKQO5CPG8j...Resolution.jpg Deepest part of the ocean is 36+K feet. :yikes: |
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I think, in your last few cohesive moments before you die, heaven and hell truly come into focus in the whole "life flashing before your eyes" kinda way.
If you were basically a good person, who looked out for others, cherished those close to you, and flat out tried to be a nice human being = dying in a happy place. Quote:
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Mine will be that I never got to play an original 59 Les Paul through a mid 60s Marshall Plexi, with everything dimmed. |
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It only really works if you know you're gonna die and have time to reflect and even then I don't think it makes sense because I think there are people who genuinely don't care who they've sh*t on. |
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That being said, stick a shotgun in your mouth and all bets are off. |
The life flashing before your eyes idea is somewhat supported by the heightened level of brain activity that happens right before death as well.
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Just going back to what Chula said about dying happy v dying miserable depending on how you've lived your life. I can't remember where I heard it but I do love the idea, even if I don't believe in it. Some religion or something believes that when we die we end up at the bottom of a mountain. Atop the mountain, at the summit, is heaven or paradise or whatever, so you have to climb the mountain.
BUT... You have to do so carrying all the people who you ****ed over in your life. So if you're a real bad person who caused a lot of hurt, killed or otherwise wronged people, you're going to have a pretty heavy burden to carry. Makes the whole idea of paying for your sins in the afterlife really work. |
Advice for everyone: Lift weights and take up rock climbing.
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Meanwhile, the highest natural point in Denmark is a pathetic 170,86m :laughing: |
You ever just walk 22 and a half miles? It's like that but straight down.
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That's 36km. Even if the water pressure wasn't an issue, I'd never want to go anywhere near deep waters like that in even the safest submarine ever built.
Also, I like illustrations like this: https://image.shutterstock.com/z/sto...-174825566.jpg |
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