Official Mental Health Thread

[YorkeDaddy]

I'm not really directing this at anybody, I just wanted to talk about what I've experienced

From ~2014-2016 my mental health issues were fairly significant. I hated everything about my life. I worked a part-time job so that I could barely pay my bills and the rest of the time I was spent in class or doing homework/projects. It was especially bad in my senior semester when I was in some upper level Psych labs that required lengthy reports every week, and a gigantic research project at the end of the semester where my final report was something like 70 painstakingly assembled pages. I can't believe I actually finished that **** with how much I hated every single waking second of my life during the week. I survived through two outlets: my music, and I think the extent of my depression is very apparent through my work on Daydream Society through this period, and through my then-girlfriend who is now my wife. She lived a few hours away but either she or I would make the drive every weekend and those weekend visits literally kept me alive. One weekend on Sunday before I was going to leave I broke down to an extent that I never have otherwise. I bawled in her arms because I just so badly did not want to leave knowing what was ahead of me that week and I did not know if I was going to be able to do it. Looking back that night was one of the most cathartic experiences of my life. I had always been taught and told that real men never cry, and I especially was told that crying in front of a woman would be emasculating to the point where she would assuredly leave me...well luckily not only was she understanding but she consoled me for hours into the night even though she had a very early wake-up time for her job.

Through her support and my music as an outlet I made it through and eventually graduated college. The sheer amount of weight that was lifted off my shoulders at that point was exhilarating and I'd never felt a sense of accomplishment quite like it. Even though I felt disdain towards my entire college experience, and I never even used my degree for anything meaningful, I used the misery I felt during those years as fuel moving forward. Now that I had been given the most powerful gift of all: time, I was able to find ways to improve my life in meaningful ways that I knew would work for me. There were still aspects of my life that sucked: I made **** money as a server, lived in a dingy apartment, worked awful hours and was often exhausted after work. But exercise, meaningful connections with friends, working towards goals on my own time instead of on the arbitrary completion dates set by a professor, and being able to more often see my then-girlfriend all did so much for me. My entire mood and outlook is so different now than it was then that I genuinely believe I'm a different person, even if some of my general mannerisms are still of course the same.

So just to conclude, I've been through some ****. There were days where I didn't think I would make it. But really the most important thing that happened to me was I entered a new situation where I had enough free time to pursue healthy lifestyle habits and goals. A big life change like that can lead you to so many new opportunities and avenues to improve every aspect of your life. That's why I so profoundly believe that complacency is such a dangerous thing to people who are suffering from depression. You don't always have a choice, but if you do have the choice then making something happen to change your entire daily routine can be so powerful.

End drunken story time

[The Batlord]

Originally Posted by Lucem Ferre

I'm not talking about murder, I'm talking about how popular it is for serial killers to target women.

Yeah it's crossed wires for sexuality and violence. I mean there are female serial killers out there but they're rare and tend to be poisoners or angels of mercy. They tend not to rape their victims to death and then mutilate their corpses. The difference seeming to be a compulsion to brutal violence.

[The Batlord]

Originally Posted by elphenor

Dahmer tho

His desire seemed to be absorbing intimacy with his victims in the most primal way possible, but essentially was just sexual violence in a way that wasn't too far removed from common male sexual frustration, just expressed in a completely dysfunctional way.

[WWWP]

Poor Dahmer. He was a victim of not seeking help and not getting it.

[jwb]

Originally Posted by the batlord

@ thread

+1

[jwb]

Originally Posted by WWWP

my mormon training that prepared me for young womanhood taught us that if a man is grumpy it's either because he's hungry, horny, or needs a nap.

You forgot about option 4: your **** stinks.

[The Batlord]

Originally Posted by WWWP

Poor Dahmer. He was a victim of not seeking help and not getting it.

Maybe if this thread was more supportive those dudes would still be alive and un-gnawed.

[WWWP]

yeah and also maybe if he got his dick milked

[Lucem Ferre]

Originally Posted by WWWP

yeah and also maybe if he got his dick milked

Didn't he used to kill the people milking his dick?

[WWWP]

Originally Posted by Lucem Ferre

Didn't he used to kill the people milking his dick?

He didn't mean to kill them, he just couldn't get the zombie sex slave chemistry right