Official Mental Health Thread

[OccultHawk]

Thanks for sharing Sam

Being crazy wears you out too

[Isbjørn]

**** i haven't slept much tonight because of my overthinking mind, so now I'm awake even though it's really early and I feel like ****... I think I might have a mild cold, and I don't know if the chills I'm having right now is because I'm sick or because of my anxiety and that's making me feel even more nervous... I really want to sleep, but I know that if I go back to bed now I'll just lie there worrying so I'm sitting alone in my living room instead, browsing YouTube and crying

[Key]

Originally Posted by Isbjørn

**** i haven't slept much tonight because of my overthinking mind, so now I'm awake even though it's really early and I feel like ****... I think I might have a mild cold, and I don't know if the chills I'm having right now is because I'm sick or because of my anxiety and that's making me feel even more nervous... I really want to sleep, but I know that if I go back to bed now I'll just lie there worrying so I'm sitting alone in my living room instead, browsing YouTube and crying

Dude ive been there. There are several nights where I just freak out and start crying. Seriously though, if the meds start to help, definitely use them. I don't use them because I have a weird thing with pills but I smoke weed and it helps. For right now, just try to keep your mind on other things. I usually have to get up out of bed and sit somewhere else to be in a different mindset. I've probably had more nights with freak outs than I can remember. Went through much the same as a kid too.

[Zhanteimi]

You might be in need of an exorcism.

[SmokeAndMirrors]

Originally Posted by OccultHawk

Thanks for sharing Sam

Being crazy wears you out too

Ironically, I actually find insanity to be artistically inspiring. I equate Munch's The Scream and Van Gogh's Wheat Fields paintings, or even Beethoven's 9th Symphony to be the pinnacle of an artist at the creative spark. However, the crushing weight of depression can indeed make the most beautifully detailed dreams and thoughts into the most nightmarish, dull, blankness that there can possibly be and that indeed can, and often does, impede great a many people, myself included at times. That's honestly part of why I got into drone, is because drone emulates that in a way. And writing it through improv, in a way is therapeutic because it's never the same twice, and I know I hit with the sound of it when the sound that comes out of my speakers, scares even me as the person that created the sound. That's probably what I need to do for myself. I haven't played my bass in...like a month now...longer than I thought. Probably wouldn't have realized that if I wasn't writing this from a stream of consciousness.

[Isbjørn]

Originally Posted by Kiiii

Dude ive been there. There are several nights where I just freak out and start crying. Seriously though, if the meds start to help, definitely use them. I don't use them because I have a weird thing with pills but I smoke weed and it helps. For right now, just try to keep your mind on other things. I usually have to get up out of bed and sit somewhere else to be in a different mindset. I've probably had more nights with freak outs than I can remember. Went through much the same as a kid too.

Thanks, buddy. I just took a shower and an anxiolytic and I already feel much calmer. My doctor told me the first couple of weeks on SSRIs might be rough. I guess they're not for everyone.

[Key]

That's good to hear. Hopefully you can get some decent sleep too.

[Isbjørn]

I often figure it's better to just get up and do something until the sun gets up, hopefully I'll get some better sleep the next night. If I get really tired during the day I might take a short nap. Thanks for the support

[Oriphiel]

Originally Posted by Key

Seriously though, if the meds start to help, definitely use them. I don't use them because I have a weird thing with pills

Were you bullied by pills growing up?

[The Batlord]

Originally Posted by Isbjørn

**** i haven't slept much tonight because of my overthinking mind, so now I'm awake even though it's really early and I feel like ****... I think I might have a mild cold, and I don't know if the chills I'm having right now is because I'm sick or because of my anxiety and that's making me feel even more nervous... I really want to sleep, but I know that if I go back to bed now I'll just lie there worrying so I'm sitting alone in my living room instead, browsing YouTube and crying

That's when I turn on the radio and listen to Coast-to-Coast AM. It's hard to think thoughts when some guy's talking about reptoids living in the hollow center of the earth.