Official Mental Health Thread

[Marie Monday]

Originally Posted by jwb

Sometimes I believe the meme that I am a sociopath or just a generally bad person.

Recently I had an interaction with some friends of the family who are this married couple with kids and they're getting up there in the years though the wife is a good decade and a half or so younger than the husband.

I've gotten flirty vibes from her for a while but the older and more domesticated they become, the more outward the boredom and frustrations with their relationship become to the outside observer, and they basically make it increasingly obvious and borderline awkward any time they have company.

Like they snipe at each other and try to score points in front of an audience... it's weird AF. Anyway, she seems to flirt with me more and more openly in front of the husband while they continue to take shots at each other in general more and more openly while whoever is in the 3rd party is just left to sit there and either egg it on or pretend not to notice.

The ****ed thing is though i genuinely like the husband and think he's a cool guy. And the wife isn't even that hot, she's just a sorta frustrated borderline chubby but also thick and curvy in the right areas housewife and I am attracted more to her sexual frustration than her looks.

I dunno why violating a marriage is a turn on to me. Especially when I know these people well and realistically won't act on it cause the social implications for me would be too drastic.

Still... I feel fundamentally like I'm ****ed in the head. I'm only barely avoiding doing the wrong thing but if i got caught in the right place right time.... it would be over.

Maybe cause I had an experience with an older woman when I was younger that was a formative experience? Or maybe cause my own household got split up in a similar way growing up?

And as i type this i recognize why it's ****ed up yet i don't fundamentally care. I don't feel it. It's like knowing the difference between right and wrong but fundamentally viewing them merely as subjective preferences.

I really don't think you're a psycho, I bet there are enough non-psycho people would feel the same in this situation. Also, doesn't the fact that they clearly don't like their own marriage contribute to your indifference?

[jwb]

Originally Posted by Marie Monday

I really don't think you're a psycho, I bet there are enough non-psycho people would feel the same in this situation. Also, doesn't the fact that they clearly don't like their own marriage contribute to your indifference?

not a psycho just.. not that good of a person tbh

And I don't think it's that "they don't like their own marriage" they've just been together forever and so maybe things get boring...


I think if she wasn't married I wouldn't even be interested which is kinda the twisted part

[The Batlord]

Do it.

[The Batlord]

Do it.

[Psy-Fi]

Originally Posted by The Batlord

Do it.

Originally Posted by The Batlord

Do it.

Pink Fairies - Do It!

[Raime]

I'm pulling my ****ing hair out trying to get my medication covered. I'm this close to calling up the insurance company and point blank asking them "Do you want me to end up killing myself?" because I'm really feeling not being properly medicated, and I thought I had a good plan to get my high as **** deductible down (therapist bills), but they didn't even take half of them. I really don't have 300 dollars around to have my "think good" pills.

Edit: I'm really trying my best not to come off crazy and psychotic, but I'm feeling pretty hopeless, and the thought of not being alive to deal with this level of greed is pretty tempting.

[Marie Monday]

Oh **** man. Whatever you do, don't stop trying. Let us know how it goes, and if there's any way I can help I'd gladly do it.

[jwb]

Originally Posted by The Batlord

Do it.

If I seriously had the option I probably would have by now but I only ever see them together lol. Probably for the best... the fall out wouldn't be worth it lol.

For all I know she just likes using me to try to make her husband jealous and that doesn't even seem to work. He never seems the least bit phased. In fact we get along well... Like I said he's a pretty chill dude.

[Lucem Ferre]

I had another crisis moment but I'm already feeling better about it.

I had a coworker that used to come into work drunk all the time and pick fights. He has a history of being drunk and actually fighting people despite their zero tolerance policies. With my two months of employment I have been challenged to fight him 5 times. He's threatened me. He's treated me like absolute ****. My 3rd week there I spoke out about it because we had been lectured about workplace behavior as a group multiple times even though he's the only one that's doing it. Since then despite him treating me like absolute dog **** he was still better, as in not threatening me and giving me hard stares, so I tried to be patient with him because I completely understand how hard it is to deal with anger issues and alcoholism and etc. etc. which in retrospect is unfair to myself because I was holding me to a higher standard than I was holding him. On Tuesday, the first real low day I've had since November he starts arguing with me over something stupid and treating me like **** again so I lost my temper and pushed a stack of cages over. He tells me to get out so I go to calm down but he and our other coworker that he simps for go to snitch on me so I walk back over angrily and immediately get fired which really just triggered me into panic mode. Long story short he challenged me to a fight again and since I was already fired I accepted. He walked away with a bloody mouth, I walked away with a bruised fist and unemployed. I don't know if this is part of the pattern or if It's just a situational thing but I'm going to be seeking disability as much as I don't want to.

[Marie Monday]

oh jesus that really sucks. I must admit I'm not sure what seeking disability entails exactly but regardless of those details I fully support any kind of financial stability for you, you deserve it. That guy is an absolute *******, no wonder you snapped. I hope you're ok.