BTW you hate women.

Kind of like how a lot of our members are racist for not liking Janet Jackosn?

Exactly. Janet Jackosn is amazing, but Janet Jackson is a twat.

The Greeks>>>>>

I like interacting with people irl but it’s very rare that I actually care about them. Like I’m not going to care about anyone I meet or interact with anymore. Like if someone from work gets sick or dies I honestly care more about something like whether or not AC/DC is on Spotify. People I’ve know for over ten years I care something about. I guess it was about ten years that I stopped caring. I mean I enjoy interacting with people I just don’t give a **** about their well-being. I want people to think I care though.

I really don’t mind objectifying the people I deal with. At least, it doesn’t feel like I care. Genuine relationships are really uncomfortable, aren’t they? I’ve had enough of all of that. Maybe I’ll go back to how I was when I cared but it’s been a while.

That said there’s a few people I’m rabidly devoted to but they came into my life a long time ago.

Sometimes I get a little sentimental. I still play out of my league when it comes to getting laid. Women say **** like when I met you I never thought we would **** and it’s like well we’re ****ing so...

Dude, I'm pretty sure I'm somewhere early on that path, but I get it, I really ****ing do, cause I am also sick of looking at the human race in general, but viewing people on a cromag spectrum of what is this woman worth to me on a basic level is just a copout for not wanting to engage because you just want to nut like a woman is an oven. It's not about capitalism or whatever you say it is, you just don't feel like looking at a human being beyond the casual level cause you just don't feel like doing it after all these years of them rejecting you. It's honestly the most capitalist, exploitative reason imaginable. Nothing about where you are right now is politics, it's all about social alienation, and if I'm wrong I'll eat a ***got crow.

I see this happening to me, as in I actually see the process happening in real time to me, which is why I insist on seeing the joy in Disney movies, the Insane Clown Posse, and kitty cats. The simple, pure joys are what I see as the only thing to keep my humanity as I lose my love of the human race as a whole.

I know you probably won’t believe me but I haven’t been rejected that much. I’ve done most of the rejecting. Everything repulses me because it’s all genuinely repulsive. And I haven’t really made many bones about it. The reason I hate capitalism is because I’m forced to live in it. That’s why I hate Christianity more than Islam and that’s why I hate America. Because those things are up in MY ****. Maybe there’s a part of me as nasty as the nastiest capitalist but I don’t force my **** up on anyone, ever. I settled on pacifism a long time ago and I live by it. It may seem incoherent but it’s not.

Maybe we're just that much more different, but the easiest thing in the world to do is to reject people before they reject you and to rationalize that position. I truly hate so much about modern society and capitalism, and I'd probably hate it regardless since it's just my nature, but I doubt I'd feel the visceral hatred for the idiocy and mental laziness of society if I didn't feel so alienated from it. I mean I have friends and ****, and I get along with my coworkers in general, but there's no getting around the fact that we're just on different wavelengths and that there's no helping it.

I'd not feel that way if I wasn't the type to feel that sort of antagonism to society in the first place, but the pushback from society has most definitely informed much of my emotional reaction to society, otherwise it would be a much more intellectual disdain. This has made me try as much as I can to take a step back and not take my emotional response to society at face value, and accept that maybe I'm just pissed off for my own self, but yeah, there's simply no way to get around the disillusionment that would happen regardless.

But maybe we really just are too different for our own experiences to educate one another. I don't know. But a lot of the things you've said about yourself have rung very true for me and meant more than just the words of some online ******* who's also depressed and ****.

I mean yeah, but let's not pretend that our experiences with people in general haven't emotionally informed our opinions of the dominant economic system of mainstream society.

Whataboutism.