jibber |
03-06-2006 12:40 AM |
so, there's been quite a huge change of plans for my summer. The original plan was to go to new zealand for four months, and then come back for school end of august. I'm excited about the program i'm planning on doing, but the thing is, i'm not ready to do it yet. when i go to school, i want it to be at a time when I'm going to be 100% focused on school, and right now, there's other things i'd rather be doing, like traveling. so, instead of four months, i'm extending it to a full year. One year of living and working in new zealand. wow. i'm excited, i'm happy, i'm sure this is what I want to do, i'm relieved that i've decided for sure (after months of debating if I should or not), and i'm also scared sh*tless. i've never been away from home for more than a week. and that was with a group of good friends. this time around, i'm going off on my own and building an entirely new life for a year. i know it's the experience of a lifetime, and i know i'm unbelievably lucky to have a chance to do something like this. mainly i'm excited for the year to come, but at the same time, wow. a whole year away from my family, away from my friends, my home, my life. every single constant foundation that I have is going to be on the other end of the planet for an entire year. of course i'm not going to be completely on my own, if I ever need to, I only have to make one phone call and my parents would bring me home without question, but I hope to god I wont have to do that. I can't wait to test out how well i'll be able to handle living on my own, thousands of miles away from any type of security I have right now. so yeah, right now i'm about 90% excited as hell, and 10% scared sh*tless.
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