Helping out our MB Family:
 

jesus, you guys.... i tried to talk to people on here when i found out i was pregnant and all i got was **** saying i was whore. cept from urban. he was there for me :)

Urban's good for that.

So is Big3thatkillsmyrandog

I never thought you were a whore.. but you thought I was a slut..
*leans in for hugs* hahahaha!

anyways talk about it now.. what you were going through, and how its come to turn out sense you've had your baby girl.

Haha, that's crazy; someone deleted all of SEB's posts, so it looks like EIMP was having a conversation with herself... I can see the advantage of this thread though; you don't have to be a 12 to admit that sometimes you need advice, It just happened to be 12 year old relationship advice that came up first. If you don't like it, don't subscribe to the thread; no-one's forcing you to. Just because there is an Emo section in this forum, a type of music I don't like, I don't go into it and rip the piss out of everyone just because I don't like it.

thanks everyone that still has there post here..
and thanks for the spam being gone
and SEB why did you delete your post?
anyways is anyone going to post about needing help.. or talk about when they were down.. or in trouble.. anything?

alright well to get this thing started..

I have a emotional problem that I can't seem to get past.
I pretty much slept in my mom and dads bed with them until was 8ish maybe even 9.. not every night but a nice bit. I was very scared of the dark and of being alone. I always had really bad dreams. I never felt safe unless someone was in the room with me while I was sleeping... cause then I'd know they would watch out for me.

alright so that was years ago..
and about 5 - 6 nights ago.. my boyfriend came out and it was his first night here that week.. and about 5 in the morning its still dark here, so I go to let the cat in the house.. because its around that time every morning that the cat wants to come in and go to bed.
so I come back down to my room and sit on the bed to wait for the cat to be done eating..
I didn't want to go back to sleep cause the cat would only wake me to let it in my room.
so I'm sitting there and my boyfriend pulls me down on the bed (he was sleeping) and then I fell back to sleep.. anyways I don't know how long after that but the door was left a little bit open.. so the cat goes to come in my room and the door makes this long creepy sound.. and I wake up looking at the open door screaming like someone was going to kill me.
my boyfriend got up and jumped out of bed looking at my screaming and starts doing it himself.. it was that scray.. so then after all that I started to cry because there I've never been so scared in my life.
back to the night before we went to sleep.. we watched Silent hill. its not that the movie was really that scarey.. cause it wasn't.. it was just more so creepy.. and the imagines was fresh in my head..
sence i was a child imagines of creepy things always freaked me out.
anyways.. I don't know how to get over this fear..
its gotten so bad for me that I have to sleep with a light on in my closet.. because its a french glass door.. you can see out of it but not in.. when its light and or dark in my room.
anyways these are fears that only a child should have.. i'm 19 and this is crazy... I'm thinking about putting myself away.. whats wrong with me?

I will when I have some, but right now I'm peachy, for once.

I don't recall calling you a whore. I certainly questioned the wisdom in keeping the child, but I don't recall labelling your sexual activities.

so no one will help me?

You have an irrational fear of the dark, which stems back to your childhood.
Nothing happened to you as a child and nothing will happen to you as a young woman.

Relax.

^ Troof.. seeing as your boyfriend was there you shoulve felt safe neways.. rmeber it the same place in the light

Only time gets rid of darkness fear. Just work it so that the light is dimmer/further away each night until you can manage without synthetic lights when going to sleep.

get this.. my aunt and her hubby show up the other morning.. and they knocked on the door and my window is in the front but my bed is right under the window so in order to see who was there I had to look out.. only I couldn't get myself to move.. its like my body wouldn't let me... and so I stayed there the hole time until they left.

and also I can't go to sleep until it starts to get light outside.. strange I know.. but my walls are really dark and all my dressers.. tv stands whatever is all balck.. and all on one wall.. so it looks like one big black hole at night.
thing is yes it used to help me when someone was in the room with me when I was a kid.. but when he also jumps up screaming (even if its cause I screaed him) he jumped away from me not in front of me.. so that made me fear even more.. cause now if someones in the room with me they wouldn't save me.. FUCK! see everything just adds to it.yea the first night he left I slepted with the closet light on.. now I have a small lamp put in there.. just enough light to let me see if anythings in there..
eek I seem so crazy don't I?

Fear of the dark is one of the most common phobias, it's not biggy.

even when ther's people in the house?
its crazy I go around to all the windows and doors about 3 or 4 times everynight to make sure i dind't forgot to lock any.. I just keep doing it... I'll lock my door then sit on my bed then go back to my door open it and then look around the basment and then come back to my room and do it over and over again..
when I go to the bathroom I always look in the shower/bath area.. why I don't know.. always scared something will pot out at me? I always look behide me when I'm in the shower.. at the drain.. again its a fear of something.. I don't know what agian..

Help me out MusicBanter family. My posts keep getting deleted and then un-deleted, i'm developing a complex. Help.

um right so neways..i don't liek getting teh help, but i think i may have social retardation.. i get uncomfotable talking to anyone.. store clerks, i hate calling people, i hate asking things.

Nah that may just be bi-polarness...

Press the shutudown button on your computer and go outside.

i do, and im not bi polar

It's not social retardation though, maybe you're just not a "people person".

You should give your computer to a homeless kid and go and do something worthwhile.

That's kind of hypocritical don't you think? Since you have one?

Maybe you have a fear of seeing some one in person beacause they'd have to see you. Maybe you don't really like yourself... maybe you don't like the way you look and fear how other people might see you or judge you.
maybe you want to be seen as someone you want to be or look like, rather then what you see when you look in the mirror.
Are you over weight?
Are you a depressive perosn?
do you think any of those two quetsions have anything to do with not wanting to socialize with people?

^ Otherwise known as "shy". He's a social leper.

Jesus people...I want to see some real issues here. :(

the give us one haha.. haven't you ever had a problem?

and as for being shy.. I'm shy.. but I would still hang out with people and go out side.. theres something more to it on his end.

I tried to choke my mother one morning because I had stayed up till 3, and it was then 8:30 AM and her cheeriness in waking me up was pissing me off.

I don't really know what to say to this.
Thats not really a normal thing unless you were dreaming about being attacked or that you were killing someone.. but to react that way to an annoying way of being woke up is awful.
I think maybe you have a hate for her in the back of you mind.. and look for reasons to bring it up.. and out of your mouth.. and I guess in this case used her waking you up as a reason to show you hidden anger towards her.. by choking her.
you shoulld look at the reasons as to why you would react such a way.
Or even more so why you would have a hate for your mother deep down.

Me and her... we're either really up or really down. We're so stubborn and so alike sometimes I love her so much but then other times, yes I do have an awful hate for her. We have a dysfunctional relationship.

as do me and my mother.. but I also have real reasons for it. So whats your reasons?

My reasons are...sometimes I think she's really dumb cuz she says things like "Is hawii a state?", other times she's just rediculous and peppy and perky and I can't stand it...and I don't know. She just rubs me the wrong way sometimes... I do love her though don't get me wrong, but meh sometimes yes I do hate her...I can't really put my finger on it. She was away a lot when I was a kid and her and my dad faught a lot, and she thinks this is the reason for some of my other "problems" but maybe I'm pissed at her cuz of that?..I don't think i am but maybe tis a sub concious thing.

^ This is more like it. :D
^ No shit!

But being a little cranky due to lack of sleep is no excuse for attempting to throttle you own Mother while she sleeps.

No no, not while she was sleeping. She was waking me up too perkily..

Oh well...who can blame you...



























































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I dunno, but after that, some people tell me I need counceling. I have a "history of violence" you see, to others and myself, and maybe I need anger management.

I'd say it more or less has something to do with her being gone alot of your childhood.
I'm sure you felt sometimes if she was going to come back..
and other times I bet your felt you got to the point where you didn't care either way. maybe you hated your thoughts about the situation after a while.. she loved you and then took it away when she left.. she made it hard to trust.. which sucked even more cause she is your mother.. so you now push and take with each others hearts.. which leaves you always perpared for her leaving.. if she ever does it again?

Oh she left because she was working, don't get me wrong... but she worked like long hours everynight and that why she was away a lot. But I was a kid I guess, right? And didn't understand that? So maybe that's it..

yes thats more then liekly it.
Kids get very hurt and easily confused by things like this.
But I swear just after Christmas you were talkign about your mother leaving your father again?

Well she did yeah... but I stayed with her, not him. And they're back together now. He cheated on her with a chick online you see, and she found out. He kept telling her she was crazy, etc...

his cheating on your mother with a women online could have something do with why you have a thing for liking interent relationships more then the real thing.