The Confessional Thread

[Dr_Rez]

Originally Posted by Mondo Bungle

I can decipher your message through your poor grammar and spelling.

He may not type with proper grammar but he gives very good advice.

Originally Posted by Sequoioideae

I've struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was a kid, so I know that feeling too well. It's not too much my friends that do this, it's my family members that make me feel guilty for having suicidal thoughts, and I've grown to really hate them for not understanding.

That really stinks that they do that. What kind of things does your family say? Idk if it's good or bad but my entire family has severe depression problems so I have never gotten flac for it.

Originally Posted by Taxman

Also some friends usually ignore you if you really trust them. If you tell them too much hoe you feel, they leave you and think you are some kind of retard. That's very usual.

Bad friends do. Really good ones will help you. The worst though is not knowing, like with a girlfriend for instance. You almost don;t want to burden them with the knowledge of knowing that about yourself.

[butthead aka 216]

Originally Posted by Mondo Bungle

I can decipher your message through your poor grammar and spelling. And I know how to make myself feel better. The way I feel is always up to me, really. I always, usually unintentionally, I can't help it, make myself feel weird about things, but also snap out of it. I don't suffer from chronic depression or anything. And usually those feelings don't stem from depression at all. Sometimes I just feel like Billy Corgan.

I never really open up to my friends that much, but I do a lot more lately.

well i dont wanna sound like theres somethin wrong with feelin sad or depressed or whatever. ppl dont understand im not trollin, i want others to be motivated. im just tryin to be positive here and tell ya that yah, its a rough time rite now but as long as you keep doin all the rite things, glory will come. i have gone thru so many periods of sadness or depression but a sick part of me welcomes it. cause i feel like a panther waitin to pounce. doin all the rite things with no immediate reward or gratification gives me a sick smile now cause i know glory will be comin if i wait it out long enough. and it always has

but to do all the rite things thru adversity and tough times you need fuel. you need a chip n ur shoulder. mine is my father. the thought of throwin my success back in his face some day just constantly motivates me. when i think of failin i think of him and the smirk he would get learnin i failed. and i cant let him win. theres my fuel so find urs.


got a little ranty there but u get what im sayin

[Dr_Rez]

Originally Posted by butthead aka 216

but to do all the rite things thru adversity and tough times you need fuel. you need a chip n ur shoulder. mine is my father. the thought of throwin my success back in his face some day just constantly motivates me. when i think of failin i think of him and the smirk he would get learnin i failed. and i cant let him win. theres my fuel so find urs.


got a little ranty there but u get what im sayin

Never thought about how a chip on the old shoulder would definitely help. You have a pretty good attitude about all that, how long did it take you top realize that, and then actually believe it.

[Mondo Bungle]

I've made a definitive decision to go back home tomorrow, never look back, and sever all ties with my "family". I'll be infinitely happier.

[butthead aka 216]

Originally Posted by Rezdaddy Longlegs

Never thought about how a chip on the old shoulder would definitely help. You have a pretty good attitude about all that, how long did it take you top realize that, and then actually believe it.

probably 4 yrs lol. i dunno i used to need instant gratification for everythin or else i wouldnt do it. and over time i just started to change because i just got this sick feelin when i would do somethin without an instant reward. sick in a good way... like it started feelin like i was puttin the pieces of a puzzle together really slowly and nobody was noticin, but it felt good cause i trusted that those pieces someday would form the most glorious puzzle known to mankind. karma doesnt make sense but if u constantly do the rite things and surround yourself with good ppl and have a positive outlook then good things are bound to happen

its like michael jordan. if youve studied him or been a fan, you know he would often greatly exagerate or make up stuff that his opponenets said about him cause he needed that chip on his shoulder. i probably do that to an extent cause nobody hates me. but a part of me has worked it out in my head that my demise would make a lot of ppl really happy and my ego wont let anyone else win. but it really just comes from my father. i dont think he cares one way whether i succeed or not but if he cared one way or another i think he would want me to fail. we have a very strained relationship/no relationship and its a lot of stubborness on both parts. and im too stubborn to ever give in to him. i cant explain how much the thought of him smilin at me failin motivates me, its always gonna be a huge chip on my shoulder. my big goals are to be better than him

[Dr_Rez]

Originally Posted by Mondo Bungle

I've made a definitive decision to go back home tomorrow, never look back, and sever all ties with my "family". I'll be infinitely happier.

Wait, sever ties but go back home? How?

[Mondo Bungle]

Well after I moved a while back, I still lived with my parents, but didn't consider it home whatsoever.

[Frownland]

When I want to get a lot of work done, I listen to instrumental music or hip hop so that I won't sing along because I sound embarrassingly white when I try to.

[Tristesse]

I graffitied a depressing quote on to the walls of a toilet cubicle at college in blood today, and it was only after I'd done it that I realised what an incredibly disgusting and grim thing it was to do.

It does contrast quite well with all the badly drawn dicks and tits though.

[butthead aka 216]

Todsy learned how hermione is pronounced lol I don't watch fantasy or kids movies so I had no way of knowin