Have you ever felt suicidal?

[midnight rain]

Just curious

[Black Francis]

Sadly yes..

i have a dilemma, it's not that i want to die permanently it's that sometimes i don't want to exist

The pain inside can be overwhelming sometimes but i don't want my life to be a sad story

i also have a daughter i wanna see grow up, so that sh*t is not even an option anymore

[Freebase Dali]

Have I ever wanted my life to end? No.
Have I ever thought about how much it would suck to actually kill myself? Yea.

I always wondered if that qualified for "having suicidal thoughts"... Like, if you thought about actually pulling the trigger and how retarded it would be. I always thought the "suicidal thoughts" thing was a little vague. Can't you think about the process being not something you'd want to do without automatically categorizing yourself as suicidal?

[Engine]

Originally Posted by Freebase Dali

Have I ever wanted my life to end? No.
Have I ever thought about how much it would suck to actually kill myself? Yea.

I always wondered if that qualified for "having suicidal thoughts"... Like, if you thought about actually pulling the trigger and how retarded it would be. I always thought the "suicidal thoughts" thing was a little vague. Can't you think about the process being not something you'd want to do without automatically categorizing yourself as suicidal?

Of course. But that's not what he asked about.

My answer: Yes. Yes, I have.

[Freebase Dali]

I just don't know what is considered suicidal... because the classical definition is "you have suicidal thoughts".

It's like asking if a person is having rapey thoughts, and they have thoughts about how they would not rape someone, because they were disgusted just going through the process in their mind.

[midnight rain]

Originally Posted by Engine

Of course. But that's not what he asked about.

My answer: Yes. Yes, I have.

What prompted it, a feeling of helplessness?

[Frownland]

Ja, I have. I was around 15 years old when I thought that suicide sounded noble and that it would be a great way for my life to end. That notion seceded and I savour what I can draw from life as much as I can. I have thought at one point that if one ends one's life at the most opportune time, then their life has lived its necessary course without the pain of consequence or unnecessary existence. Thankfully, I've moved past this and I try to get the most that I can from this 80 year period that I have here.

[Black Francis]

Originally Posted by Freebase Dali

I just don't know what is considered suicidal... because the classical definition is "you have suicidal thoughts".

It's like asking if a person is having rapey thoughts, and they have thoughts about how they would not rape someone.

it's not really about thoughts it's about behaviour

i myself have a very self destructive behaviour i need to keep myself in check

i used to do drugs in excess i avoided reality has much as possible cause it was painful

i always empathise with suicidal ppl or those who committed suicide
ppl call them "Cowards" Not realising that is not that they didn't have courage to face life
is that they felt it wasn't worth it.. it's a feeling inside they have that no amount of pretty words can take away

[CanwllCorfe]

Yeah. Back when I was younger, around 15 or thereabouts, it was more histrionic. As in I would think how much people would miss me and such. It was almost vengeful in some weird, sick way. Nowadays it's just like, "I think I'm done now". No drama or anything. I just don't feel into the whole life... thing.

[Engine]

Originally Posted by Tuna

What prompted it, a feeling of helplessness?

Escapism, fear, and hopelessness that those feelings would ever go away.
It was just a mid-30s phase though.