Welcome back, big dog!
Sucks about the circumstances and all, but the best of luck to you and yours.

broke some sort of record today

woke up at 5.20 p.m.

I hope I'm not getting too personal but do you think your ex-wife is suffering from post partum?

She did after his birth, but that's a pretty hard excuse to throw out over a year later. But as you know, her regular state of mind is nothing spectacular to begin with, being bipolar and paranoid schizophrenic.

I feel so bad for her. There are things that she hates about herself, but she manifests that hate towards me. We have conversated and I expressed to her in great detail how she has to be happy with herself before she can be happy with anyone else, and how she criticizes in other what she dislikes about herself, and she fully agrees. But then she flies off the handle and all of that work goes out the window.

She always has to be feuding with someone and idolizing someone esle in her life. Right now, she views me as the enemy. Her father is building a new house and promised her a room in it, so she's kissing his ass. Once he gets tired of supporting her and starts telling her how much of a failure she is, she will remember that I accept her and love her no matter what, and she will try to come back to me. Then she will get tired of me not being rich like her dad and being able to but her everything, and she will start hating me and kissing his ass again. It's a vicious cycle.

I try to make her sit down and realize the things that are constant in her life, the things that never change. I never criticize or belittle her, even when she hates me. I always put her first. I always did what was best for her, even when that decision was unpopular. She hated me for helping to get her committed to the mental hospital during one of her episodes, but she later thanked me. Then she hated me because I refused to sign a lease when neither one of us had jobs. If we had, we'd be stuck in a contract with no way to pay the bills, which would be even worse.

My sister was released from the hospital today. She's 6 months pregnant and they said her placenta partially burst the other night. I guess they patched her up. I'm glad she's doing better though.

I tried to talk to the wife and son on the phone but it was a no-go. Couldn't get half a sentence out before I hear "Did you need something?!" Sometimes I feel like my life is just one big episode of Candid Camera or Punk'd, just seeing how far I can get pushed before I break.

I thought you were holding this for a second.
http://www.paulbuceta.com/images/jou...16birthday.jpg

Hahaha, very similar. The hat wearing gentleman is just on the opposite side.

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Today, ran into the girl I have been super into for something like two years. I was drinking. She asked me if I was drunk. I said, "Why wouldn't I be? I'm Sara."

She said she'd pray for me.

that's great to hear that your sister is doing better because the placenta bursting doesn't sound safe at all if she didn't get rushed to the hospital. I think it's one of those things that could be life threatening or at least it seems that way.

I didn't know there was a special time length on post partum but yeah she has other issues piled up on top of that as you described.

aww I'm surprised she didn't say that she'd pray for you just upon seeing you unless she's one of those Christians that are more accepting of gays and lesbians.

^If someone says "I'll pray for you" and walks away, I think it should behove us to demand they pray for us on the spot and save our souls from "eternal damnation." If they refuse, tell them Jesus died for them, it's the least they could do. Have some fun with it.

Today I learned to play some papa roach and iron maiden ^^

fun.