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I'm calling DPS.

Cheryl's pregnant.

Does this now affect how you feel about her?

Yeah. It's knocked the stuffing out of me. I just ****in' hate it and if that's not nice then well I'm not a nice person. I went in to town tonight although I didn't meet her where she stands to do business I met her in town proper and she seemed a bit drunk then she told me she'd been arrested today 'cause 'some american guy had kicked her in the belly' which is when she said she was pregnant and pulled up her top to show me. Then she said she'd kicked him back and thrown him down the stairs or something and had been arrested but let off because he'd started it. I asked her more but she changed the subject. Then i bought her something to eat and we walked up the rd. a bit before she said 'why don't you go for your drink and meet me at the bus stop', where she stands to do business, 'later' which was an obvious attempt to fob me off and I left her and didn't meet her on my way home. It has to be said it's entirely possible the pregancny is a fake and her seemingly enlarging belly is part of some elaborate scam or something like that. I find it a bit strange she didn't mention it last night not to mention the fact she asked me to do business with her last night then again she was sober last night so probably less inclined to come out with anything no matter how distantly related to reality. I only wanted to go in and see her tonigh 'cause I was worried about something that happened last night and wanted to gauge her reaction to me. ****! Chery's pregnant! ****! ****! ****! Cheryl is pregnant! ****! ****! ****! This isn't going to bring out the best in me.

I see the novel is going well, good for you :basketbal

That's the 2nd post today where someone seems to think I'm making all this up. I wish i ****in' was!!!

Also today, while I'm at it, I saw one of the prostitutes who I think was the one I saw about 3 weeks ago who I walked passed and who said 'hello love' in an obviously sloshed voice but didn't turn round so never saw her face.but now I've seen her face that particular curiosity has been satisfied. She's quite nice. She said 'want any business love' so it probably is the same one 'cause none of the others say 'love' when they proposition me.

Well I've officially survived eighteen years today. Pretty good day, set the curve on my statistics final which means that I'm essentially getting a pretty high A in that class. Going with my family to have a great meal at one of my favourite restaurants called Sublime and am going to have a bitching party tomorrow.

Thanks but until she has a miscarriage, probably Septermber sometime, there won't be anymore and in fact there won't be any more period 'cause the way she just fobbed me off after I'd bought her something to eat tonight proved once and for all I'm just a mug to buy her anything. I wouldn't have minded but apart from wanting to gauge her reaction after a massive faux pas on my part last night, and a few smaller ones, I was hoping to finally fulfil my dream of buying her a drink in a pub while pretending to myself she was an actual girlfriend. I came home feeling gutted a-because of the pregancny b-because I'd spent £5 on the taco or w/e it was when I'd thought it was only going to be £3 and b-'cause she fobbed me off obviously not wanting to come for a drink making me feel used. She asked me if I wanted some of the mexican thing I'd bought her but I didn't have any appetite. I wonder if I would have if I hadn't just found out she was 3 months pregnant. If I hadn't have been so besotted with her over the last few months I would right now just staright up call her a bitch I'm that put out by developments.

Is it your birthday today? Happy birthday!

I had a great day at work today. In fact, I had a great second week and I'm going to miss this job when it's over :(

I haven't been around a lot lately because I stare at a computer screen most of the day and can't surf the Internet at work (as it should be anyways) because I'm too busy. So I come home and I just have to rest my eyes from all that computer time.

I guess I'll get used to it, but my eyes just get so tired and strained. And I already wear glasses so none of this is really helping my eyes!