Originally Posted by Plankton (Post 1442122)

Sorry to hear.

Moral Support vs Not Being A Target for family BS

Sometimes you gotta suck it up and do the right thing, but thats a slippery slope. Just remember your actions will resonate in the brains of your family members for years to come.

Originally Posted by Carpe Mortem (Post 1442116)

Well, I guess my grandma's on her death bed. I'm not super sad because people die, especially old people, but it does suck when it happens.

Especially when family you NEVER talk to and actually dislike, think its gonna be a bonding experience. Maybe my grieving process involves staying the hell away from people who criticize me every time I see them and make me uncomfortable with their extraneous touching. So yet again I'm gonna be the 'bad' person in the family because I don't wanna sit around a comatose old woman getting fondled by 40 year olds on bipolar medication.

Just kinda annoyed. Really don't like that side of the family. And I hate when people die because it's not a big deal to me, never has been, and people seem to think I'm gonna change my personality when it happens and suddenly cry and hug them and ****. I'm not a supportive person, I never have been, five funerals later you'd think people would know this.

So she's not dead yet but RIP Gaga because it'll probably happen soon. She never was the same after Papa died in 2009.

Originally Posted by Frownland (Post 1442127)

"Sounds like fun, Frownland. Wish I coulda gone!"

Originally Posted by Frownland (Post 1442127)

"Sounds like fun, Frownland. Wish I coulda gone!"

Originally Posted by Black Francis (Post 1442292)

My day started with a soap opera dream about my ex.. >_>

She's coming to PR this friday and we already talked about hooking up, but it's solely about hooking up, meaning no relationship and going back to being f*ck buddies like we were in the past.

HOWEVER i keep having failed romantic nightmares about her, Nightmares were we hook up but we don't feel anything, that the chemistry we once had is gone, and this hurts me more than i like because she is the only girl in my life that i have a deep connection with.


I feel im mixing loneliness with nostalgia and love, i don't want to be her BF again but i don't want to lose her either, we've been each other's safety net for so long but now she has a BF but im single.

i fear that if we hook up again im gonna get too attached and im gonna want her back just to not be lonely so i keep having nightmares that she rejects me and they suck!!

it sucks i can't control these drama queen dreams, and the heartbreak i feel in them is VERY REAL i hope they don't come true.

Originally Posted by Paul Smeenus (Post 1442297)

Yesterday was one of the most horrifyingly stressful days of my life. I still ache over the unmitigated hell that was my day yesterday.

Originally Posted by FRED HALE SR.

She has a boyfriend? I think the romantic dreams are the least of your worries dude.

Originally Posted by Black Francis (Post 1442300)

Our relationship is not that black & white (Although she is black and im white)
When we broke up we were in this same situation but in reverse, i met a girl and she was single and she felt like i do now, unsure and worried i would forget her.

And when she got a BF i was happy for her but even though she got one she constantly calls me to tells me she misses me.

She even broke it down dude, she told me she is with him because he is good to her but she doesn't feel that strong connection she has with me.

And i feel the same, i haven't met a girl im that connected with
We keep meeting new ppl but we keep coming back to each other.

She even went out of state to break this connection but we never stopped talking on the phone, and even when we didn't talk for a year when we talked again the connection was still there.

I fear losing that, but at the same time i don't want a relationship with her.