allright. That feeling called euphoria lasted two and half weeks and now I'm coming down again. I had to quit in the middle of my day at school and just went home. I collapsed completely. Everyone was so glad and all and they just told me how I am too easily irritated and all. So I went home.

I have not taken my pills for anxiety for a long time though because I was feeling pretty well but now it seems that I'm going down and fast. And being abandoned and isolated because of that. I even promised not to cut no more but I did cut even when I was feeling gresty which seems to be pretty pointless but I dunno. I felt great but emtpy, now I feel bad and empty. Whatever. I'm gonna get drunk now probably because I must forget. Someone would be kind if he told me what the hell is wrong with me? This morning I felt great but suddenly something happened and it has never been this serious. I seriously thought I'm going to die.

3 little varmints. Even though they're the GF's cats, they seem to think I'm their owner, and that I may or may not be their meal ticket.

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Cat hair all over the place.

Seems like you might be bi polar? did your therapist mention that? You seem to be crashing from a manic episode but idk for sure better to get that diagnosis from a professional.

I've spent the last two days trying to teach myself as much HTML as possible before I start to school for Computer Programming in August. Having a bit of a head start isn't going to hurt. Have a friend that's already went to school and graduated from the program, and he's been pretty helpful too to make sure I'm not forming bad habits early haha.

Hopefully, your friend suggested this site for reference:

HTML Tutorial

Listening TO 2 coworkers kiss ass to our new supervisor in the next room. Incredibly annoyed by it lol

he did mention but I quit him anyway so it does not matter now. I told him there's nothing wrong with me and he believed that it's so, after a depressed period that lasted maybe half year with little breaks in between I felt normal for a month and then started to feel very self-content and all and it lasted two weeks till today.
but yep he said I might have bibolar or borderline personality disorder and that my symptoms are something else than "just" depression and nothing more. Dunno. I should find a new therapist but it's summer holiday soon anyway so I may aswell wait over it cos maybe it gets better and it don't then it won't and nobody cares.
Though some kind of diagnosis would be good cos this is basically very annoying when you don't know what's wrong with yourself- if theres anything wrong at all.

Yeah that's one of the sites he referred me to, and left me with a tutorial book he used also.

If you afford to sign up for a few months www.lynda.com is a really great resource as well.

Alright, appreciate the help! I'll certainly look into it. Do you have any experience with programming by chance?