I'm tiny on account of being premature and Italian... =\

5'6 on a good day, all of 120-125lbs. Terrible posture so I look shorter.

More importantly... Mixed feelings on all those restrictions. I've never looked into the statistics but I'd imagine the people who consider or seek surgery are very sure of themselves. I'd be surprised if many of them wound up getting cold feet. In my case... I'd consider getting implants, maybe. I'd seek consoling from a professional first though.

I think those restrictions are in place for a good reason. No matter how sure you think people are. They do have reservations and second thoughts like any other person. Some have trouble with it even after going through with their procedure.

When I said giant I wasn't referring to your size, lol. I was referring to the amount of man whore you possess. :D

that's very true. i was only thinking of the people who don't have those reservations and who might feel insulted by having to get the okay from someone else to, ah, change their body.

I can't even imagine how hard it is to test the waters for yourself when you are dealing with the public eye. People can't be total nasty ****s if you don't fit their ideals of societies norms. It takes a lot of support to go through the process because there always will be judgements.

I know for sure that you are not the only one not sure about it. It might be because you haven't had the right environment to try doing it full on. There are loads of men out there who wear make up and female clothing in secret. But I'm not that clued up on the process so it might be worth talking to a trans person?

I kind of guessed, but you are allowed to be attracted to whoever you like (obviously not children ffs). Don't feel like you have to act out anything on MB, you can be comfortable on here to talk about your true desires. Why do you think I have only ever talked on here about my questionable attraction to women? :)

My group is playing one of our biggest gigs tonight in front of an audience of at least 50 people. We've been practicing all summer for this, so it should go pretty well. Especially well considering that most of the people in the audience have no idea who we are so we plan on putting the fear of god into them. Gonna be saxing, drumming, and playing guitar at this one, it'll be a blast for sure.

@WhateverDude
I think you should go make an account on fetlife.com (it's a social website for the fetish community, which doesn't just include BDSM and taboo sex stuff). There are tons of forums dedicated to gender identity. You can ask questions and speak with people who will understand where you are coming. It might help you understand yourself and answer some of your questions about what it would be like to live the life you think you may prefer.

@Frown
Sounds awesome. Don't forget to give a shout out to the Mormons or whoever that came to your door.

Yay! That's so exciting I hope you guys have a blast.

Today I'm off to the city centre to get social media pages made for a Korean guy's restaurant. I feel so grown up bringing my small pink laptop around to show him what I've done so far. He's going to pay me and make me a free lunch too. My friend called me last night to get me to completely redo his CV which he'll pay me for too.

My flatmate is an idiot though. On Friday night I went to the toilet at 1am and he ran up stairs to turn off the internet so I couldn't use it. He literally is so paranoid that I'm somehow stealing the internet data even though every computer in the boarding house is registered with their mac address and allocated data. This has been ongoing for most of the time I've lived here. I'm ignoring it and doing what I want to do. He never talks to me about it but turns the internet off (even though there is a big sign saying to leave the ****ing modem alone) to see if I will go upstairs and check the modem. He thinks it's proof that I'm meddling with it to try steal data. Anyone with a brain should realise that is not proof of anything. It's actually really hilarious. He's been in this place for 6 years and his gf lives here now (for a year so far) but now he's poisoned her with so many lies about me she won't even look at me or talk to me. Strange people.

Went to work. Got off. Bought 2 40oz and a halfie of vodie omw home. Bought drugs omw home. Stoned off my ass. Drunk off my ass. Bought blood-red lipstick omw home. Wearing blood-red lipstick. Gonna be drinking. I am totally fine today, should I freak out tonight disregard every boring thing I say I am totally okay.

I love you MB.

good on you.

I was thinking of a liquor hall but I almost passed out today at work and I feel I'm too sick to drink now so I'm stuck here with these boring-ass sedatives.

the good news is, I had a word with my boss today about gaining actual fulltime status (I'm already working full-time hours but in the system I'm listed as a part time associate) so I can finally get health insurance for the first time in 4 years.

I'm really quite miserable to be honest. Haven't stopped being dizzy in over a week, can't focus on anything for more than a few minutes. Zero energy. Vitamins are only making it worse. Really hoping I can see a doctor soon (which is really unusual for me, I've never said that in my life).