Sometimes you just need to say it out loud to get it out of your own head, even if you can't be certain anyone is listening.

I'm sorry, I do have a terrible way of helping. In fact I specifically told you that I'm good at listening, which sometimes is all that's needed, but my life advice sucks. Don't take life advice from miserable people.

Also, despite the fact that your apology satirical, you don't need to apologize. Nothing wrong, act how you want to act. IDGAF. How you act doesn't pay my bills.

I'm not going to pity you though, Ki. If I told you some of the **** that I've had to go through in the last few months or year it'd make your **** look trivial. But I won't. It's none of your business and none of anybody elses god damned business. One thing I learned while being a whiny pussy was that you never broadcast this ****. Even to vent. PM people to vent. Because if you do people much worse than me or Batlord or that ******* ****ing Chula will use it.

Heh.

You were doing just fine until this set of words.

That's where he lost me.

I think this is more toward what I'm trying to do. Trying to see it on paper instead of in my head. Helps me realize what is actually going on.

What's wrong with that set of words? I mean, if you vent in an open forum anybody can read it people can be absolutely fowl. I know I've had a dude go off about my brother being a heroin addict the day we put him in the ground over the fact that I called him a hater.

Calling me a whiny pussy is in no way helpful is what I was getting at.

I find that as soon as I commit an idea to words, it's like I can free my brain of the ideas, otherwise they keep swirling around in a nondescript haze. Doesn't matter what the words are. Story, hate letter, suicide note, article, screenplay, album review, whatever. It's like exhaling all those thoughts to put them down in words somewhere, even if it's a journal under my mattress.

Ki if it means anything you're in my top 3 friendos on the forum <3