Great thing about today: I've got summer vacation until August 8.

Not great/unknown: I'm still not 100% sure if I've got a job to come back to at that point. Anxiously awaiting the arrival of some news on that.

Yeah, the place where I get told I'm retarded, ugly, I have **** taste in music and my hair is tacky.

You're still one of my fav members <3

Would you rather we lie to you?

I’m hardly a success story but I’m still above ground.

Sometimes you gotta take out the trash, man.

Yeah, I'm by no means perfect and got my own issues but at the end of the day I've always admit when I ****ed up and try to make things right. Actively trying to change the things about myself that I know are toxic. A lot of these people are almost 30 and still doing the same **** they've been doing 10 years ago. I already know that with me being emotionally unstable being around some of these people is just unhealthy. Especially when these people are willing to emotionally manipulate you and dump their blame on you to avoid accountability for their own bull****. I'm trying to grow, they're just trying to hide. And they're willing to stunt my growth if it helps them hide.

Up at 730am and already high. Happy Friday!

I had to drop a really close friend because when we hung out we were just too ****ing crazy. Old style **** like drinking (and drugging of course), womanizing, fighting or almost fighting others, gambling, getting thrown out of bars- I could’ve rolled with all- just hell raising except I felt like it was more than the sum of what we we got up to: it brought out a sinister side of myself I didn’t want to release. He asked why I was avoiding him and said because we ain’t up to no good and you know it, man.

Like they say on television we was headin for “dead or in jail”

And I didn’t want neither

You're also a ***got.

Weak sauce