Russia was pretty cool back in the 80's. Or so they say.

Yugoslavia was cooler. :cool:

Today is my friend Jenny's birthday. She would have been 35.

For those who don't remember or didn't see my post over the summer, Jenny committed suicide on July 12th. It was a complicated situation but basically, Jenny lost all of the things she had to care for. Her long time dog passed away in March and her long time boyfriend (one of my best friends) broke up with her unexpectedly after they moved across the country. That's a whole other story but I'll leave it be. We think those two things were what was keeping her going this whole time. Once she lost those, she just had herself to take care of, and she wasn't up for it. I hope she's at peace. I miss her a lot.

It's weird that I'm remembering her birthday that she'll never get to have. Life is f*cking bullsh*t sometimes.

Anyway, happy birthday Jenny. Love you.

oh man :(

I hope you're getting through the day ok, take care

Super tough thing to have to remember Exo; I'm sure it brings some dark memories back, but hopefully also some good ones. I'm sure wherever she is she's smiling down on you. Peace, my friend.

Happy birthday Jenny


One of my friends (not a very close one, but one that was always around) committed suicide this year too

Sorry to hear that, man. :(

I lost a close friend a few years ago too, though not to suicide; she was just very sick. Anyway, it's always best to remember the good times with your friends.

Sorry to hear that rs. Luckily for me, the only friend I lost was over 30 years ago now. He was my best friend though.

Today is the Independence Day in Poland, meaning I’m probably stuck at home for the entire day.

You see, there’s at least a couple of things about November 11th that drives me nuts.

First: the date is plain dumb. It’s more like the date of the end of WW1, meaning that we’re supposed to celebrate an independence that lasted for 20years, before being invaded once again.

I guess it doesn’t matter Anyway, as I don’t really buy into the whole „nationalist” stuff, so even if the date was correct I wouldn’t celebrate it.

Still, why the **** november the 11th. Isn’t the first tree elections in 1989 a better date? Or I don’t know, May 9th, as the end of WW2?

Second: the ruling party is one of this kind of idiota that say that Poland wasn’t Independent not only during the community rule (up until 1989), but that Poland wasn’t independent before they rose to power (2015). And even know they believe we’re still under the „Evil dominion of the European Union”.
So what the **** are they celebrating?

Third: And this is the worst out of all the three; sadly ever since the current government is at the power, a lot of people in Poland started showing their true colors.
And so, when there was an independence day march in, say 2010, it was fine. There were a lot of people marching through the city, some concert, some speaches, like, normal national celebration. But ever since 2015 it began to change.
Currently the „March Of Independence” is a fascist convention, with 100-200k people with torches, flags, and nationalist banners going through Warsaw pretty much destroying everything.
I mean, last year they ****ing tore some trees from the ground. And what happened near were I live, was the infamous now „The Battle Of Empik” (Empik is a store with books, movies, papetry, kind of like Fnac or something), during which like 30-40 of these morrons were standing in front of Empik and throwing bricks and flares at the police. A battle ensued, and to be honest the place looks like hell up to this day.

But apart from that single event; the Police doesn’t interfere with these marches. It’s a stark contrast to any other manifestations, like the ones „pro-choice” I went to, which even though peaceful, were attacked and disbanded by the police in a matter of an hour or so.
It’s all because the rulling party wants to romance the nationalists, because for some time now, that’s the only social group were they can get any support.
The rulling party is called „Law and Justice” (that’s not a joke).

Anyway, considering the part of town where I live (I’ve got the Constitutional Court, The Ministry of Justice, The Ministry of Education, The ministry of foreign affairs and the Prime ministers headquarters all on the same street), these people are bound to walk right next to my house.
I remember being 15-16, and standing on my balcony, watching the hell break lose downstairs, and a guy ****ing shot me in the head with a flair.

So i guess I’ve got an entire day to make music and thanking God I’m jot standing in the path of that mayhem.