I love one of my jobs, hate the other with a passion...

But fortunately I got to do the good job today... and the kids I worked with were generally pleasant, obliging, easy to work with. It can be opposite to that sometimes but I otherwise absolutely love the job I have during the day... the deli job.... nah, that sucks no matter what... but I didn't have to go there today!

I'm starting to realize that I care about no one.
Today is just a contributing factor.

I care about people, I just find myself awfully tired of needy adults who mostly know better but have to behave like buttholes regardless...

That' even worse than an inconsiderate kid, comsidering the kid probably still needs to learn... but the adult...

Is it bad when you find yourself not caring about anyone at all? Not even your own family... I mean, an emotional caring...
I can appear to care about everyone I meet... but I wouldn't bat an eyelash if everyone I've met died.
I just don't have it in me.

I feel a taught connection that's supposed to be natural, but I know I would never cry for a funeral.
I'm just finding the bad parts of people lately and it keeps supporting my position.

I just keep finding non connections.
It's a trend that I don't think I can control.

You know, I had a feeling you were a heartless bastard;)

Maybe you should buy a pet :)

I can't really help it.
But I try to make up for it. You know... fit the model, meet the expectations.
I don't have a problem doing that.
It's just not me.

I have one.
Recently acquired a cat, which I care about more than my own family members as far as emotional content is involved.
It's more natural feeling for me.
I look forward to getting home from school and greeting the cat.

I haven't even named him yet.
I feel weird about that. Naming him.. I think he should choose his own name by his actions. Something that defines him. I'm open to suggestions.

You should name it Ethan because it probably likes to sit on your lap.

Fuzzywinkles