Fair enough.

[EDITED because stoner me felt like revealing too much.]

See a doctor?

[Edit]

I know a doctor could help. Just not into the idea.

Don't mistake my post for a "cry for help" btw. Its not intended that way. I mostly couldnt care less. That's life.

Re-read this 10 times.

ffs. should've just not bothered. i was simply expanding what i know as a pretty enormous fear. i don't really sit around and think about it every day. it's just my life.

You admitted a doctor would help.

Well yeah. Would a doctor not help?

Being stuck without a job or place to live. After having been homeless for two and a half years and simultaneously gotten caught up with my family's capacity for callousness its really clicked with me that I need to work harder at building a future for myself lest I will die in a gutter.